May this not be our dissatisfied elements, desirous of change,
speaking within us? And the often-just premonitions of death which
come to men, how explain them other than as the stirring of our
elements quickened by radiations from the unknown? The trouble of
those stricken by a sudden and mortal fate, their inexplicable
distress, the panic-stricken flock of teeming thoughts vainly seeking
escape in their shadowy subconsciousness--all this morbid poignant
possessed state must be due to our cells' foreknowledge that shortly
their architecture will be changed. Our independent life puts no
obstacle in the way of that universal ebb and flow, which sets
through us and subjects us to the same law of eternal change which
rules the rest of chaos.
For these reasons the close of a career should not be to us a
melancholy sight. To be born, to exist, to die should seem simple,
natural, unchangeable things, only shades of difference even when
considered to the farthest obscurity of their never-ending course.
But to be eternal, there is a vision which exceeds! To be eternal!
The universe withstands, unmoved, the passing of trees and beings and
things. In its season everything must defile before the mirror of
changeless time. Plants in their fading go the way of suns as they
grow cold, of dreams as they pass on waking, of an insect as it
perishes. In the imperishable universe things are born only to die.
We, as atoms of the stream of life, can stiffen ourselves with the
knowledge that we suffer only the common fate of all created things;
that the same fate rules both material and spiritual things, men and
stars following one curve in their careers; and that in nature no
situation can endure unaltered.
As we dwell on it, the idea of being eternal becomes impossible to
our spirits. To be infinitely active for ever, what a prospect of
overwhelming sameness! Perpetual life would be for us no less than a
never-ending sleeplessness. We would have to endure with a constant
endurance of constant circumstances, while others about us were born
and died, while plants grew green and withered, whilst the rivers
ran, and the suns burned themselves out; we would have to watch the
ebb and flow of things, and the measured flight of hours, the
evolution of form, the levelling of fine distinction. The same
dreams, the same senses would function, without ever a stop, without
ever a relieving variation--what a vision of weariness and monotonous
despair! Like a great wide eye in which were mirrored chaos and its
thousand ghostly shapes, an eye limpid but glassy, strained and
aching with its long stare, over which it was ordered that no easeful
lid might ever close.
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