The Glebe 1914/04 (Vol. 2, No. 1): CollectsTraubel, Horace
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The Glebe 1914/04 (Vol. 2, No. 1): Collects
Traubel, Horace
American essays -- 20th century; Literature, Modern -- 20th century -- Periodicals
I know whether you are a brother among comrades
or a chance acquaintance among enemies. What are you doing for the
cause?
You are doing nothing for the cause. You are making a living. But you
are not making life. You are personal. You have not surcharged yourself
with the general inspirations. Your motive is profit not service. You
want to get ahead no matter how. You dont want to stay behind no matter
why. Let anybody suffer. You mean to rejoice. You dont make way for the
world. The world makes way for you. Service is not master. Profit is
master. Downing someone else. Making good because someone else makes
bad. That is your code. Staying alive no matter who goes dead. Sponging
on life. Loafing on others. Taking anything you can any way you can get
it. Accepting none of the odium of the cause. Shrinking from anathema.
Avoiding unpopular opinions. Letting anyone do the work of progress. You
doing nothing. That's the code. Others queer themselves for an idea. Do
you? Anything but that. You pat them on the back. But you sneak the
price. You encourage them to go on. But you dont go on with them. You
scab on the revolution. They put up their lives. You put up nothing.
They die that you may live. You live that they may die. It's bad enough
to scab on the body. But it's infinitely worse to scab on the soul. You
are strike breakers. You undersell. Just as you undertalk. Just as you
underspend. Just as you underact. You hear the cause defamed and say
nothing. When the battle is on you are nowhere to be found. You dont
even carry water. You scab on your brother. You scab on your age. You
are the revolutionist gone to wood. There's no flower on your stem. You
let the others do the fighting. But you claim your share of the spoils.
You say: These theories will be all right some time. But that some time
will never be your time. My ears know your voice. I can tell when you
are around though you say nothing. Little as you know it, I follow you
through all the intricacies of your psychic retreats. Do you think you
can cover your tracks? Right or left, up or down, in or out, across or
around: wherever you go I tally you. Every step you take is within my
horizon. Do you resent my inevitable attendance? You say: I mean the
same thing you do. And you say: I am with you, only not so fast. You
say: You can count on me, too, but not too soon. You say: You can depend
upon my good will, but not too far. You've always some reason for
holding back. Some reason for not putting up money or service. Some
reason for withholding your confession. Somebody is always too violent
for you. Too extreme. Too exacting. Too inevitable. You want at the same
time to be and not to be. You let other men queer themselves for you.
You see them lose their reputations. You know they put their livings in
the scale for the cause. But you dont raise a finger to help them. You
hug your poor life as if it was rich. You husband your prostituted
treasure as if it was righteous.
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