She took a letter from her pocket and read it. In the twilight the
letter was the whitest thing in the world. The double sheet trembled
between her fingers, which held it carefully, like a dove in the air.
She put the trembling letter to her lips, and kissed it. From whom was
the letter? Not from her family. A servant girl is not likely to have
so much filial devotion as to kiss a letter from her parents. A lover,
her betrothed, yes. Many, perhaps, knew her lover's name. I did not,
but I witnessed her love as no other person had. And that simple
gesture of kissing the paper, that gesture buried in a room, stripped
bare by the dark, had something sublime and awesome in it.
She rose and went closer to the window, the white letter folded in her
grey hand.
The night thickened--and it seemed to me as if I no longer knew her age,
nor her name, nor the work she happened to be doing down here, nor
anything about her--nothing at all. She gazed at the pale immensity,
which touched her. Her eyes gleamed. You would say she was crying,
but no, her eyes only shed light. She would be an angel if reality
flourished upon the earth.
She sighed and walked to the door slowly. The door closed behind her
like something falling.
She had gone without doing anything but reading her letter and kissing
it.
. . . . .
I returned to my corner lonely, more terribly alone than before. The
simplicity of this meeting stirred me profoundly. Yet there had been
no one there but a human being, a human being like myself. Then there
is nothing sweeter and stronger than to approach a human being, whoever
that human being may be.
This woman entered into my intimate life and took a place in my heart.
How? Why? I did not know. But what importance she assumed! Not of
herself. I did not know her, and I did not care to know her. She
assumed importance by the sole value of the momentary revelation of her
existence, by the example she gave, by the wake of her actual presence,
by the true sound of her steps.
It seemed to me as if the supernatural dream I had had a short while
before had been granted, and that what I called the infinite had come.
What that woman, without knowing it, had given me by showing me her
naked kiss--was it not the crowning beauty the reflection of which
covers you with glory?
. . . . .
The dinner bell rang.
This summons to everyday reality and one's usual occupations changed
the course of my thoughts for the moment. I got ready to go down to
dinner. I put on a gay waistcoat and a dark coat, and I stuck a pearl
in my cravat. Then I stood still and listened, hoping to hear a
footstep or a voice.
While doing these conventional things, I continued to be obsessed by
the great event that had happened--this apparition.
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