Let me, then, finish with this earth: I told you, when I finished
writing last night, that Robert is almost cured. I would not have
told you this for the sake of arrogating to myself the position of a
saviour. But I imagine that you would like the cure to go on and, in
the case of some accident after my death, it might go all to pieces
once more. Quite simply then: I have been doing two things. In the
first place I have persuaded your chemists to reduce very gradually the
strength of chloral, so that the bottles contain nearly half water. And
Robert perceives no difference. Now of course it is very important that
he shall not know of the trick that is being so beneficently played on
him--so that, in case he should go away or for one reason or another
change his chemists, it must be carefully seen to that instead of pure
chloral he obtains the exactly diluted mixture. In this way he may be
brought gradually to drinking almost pure water.
But that alone would hardly be satisfactory: a comparatively
involuntary cure is of little value in comparison with an effort of the
will. You may, conceivably, expel nature with a fork, but nothing but
a passion will expel a passion. The only point to be proved is whether
there exists in your husband any other passion for the sake of which he
might abandon his passion for the clearness of vision which he always
says his chloral gives him. He has not, of course, the incentives usual
to men: you cannot, in fact, “get” him along ordinary lines.... But
apart from his physical craving for the drug he _has_ that passion
for clearness of intellect that he says the drug gives him--and it is
through that, that at last, I have managed to hit his pride.
For I have put it to him very strongly that one view of life is just
as good as another--no better, no worse, but just the same. And I have
put it to him that his use of chloral simply limits for him the number
of views of life that he might conceivably have. And, when you come to
think of all the rhapsodies of his that we have listened to, I think
that that piece of special pleading is sufficiently justified. I do
indeed honestly believe that, for what it is worth, he is on the road
to salvation. He means to make a struggle--to attempt the great feat of
once more seeing life with the eyes that Fate originally gave to him.
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