The old vicarage : $b A novelHubback, Mrs. (Catherine-Anne Austen)
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The old vicarage : $b A novel
Hubback, Mrs. (Catherine-Anne Austen)
English fiction -- 19th century
self, as her mother had depicted for her, _could_ not be expected of
one so young; it would wither her youth, and blight her spirit, and
darken all the gay happiness which ought to be hers!
Nay, but it was her duty! it was _God’s_ will, and as such, it could
not be too hard; her burden would not be greater than she could bear;
more would not be expected of her than she would have power to
perform; could she but fix her eyes aright, and draw strength from the
Source of everlasting strength, she should not find it fail; weak,
trembling, insufficient as she was, she need not fear, if she only
trusted all to Him, and nothing to herself. And then a voice seemed to
whisper to her heart,
“Child of my love, how have I wearied thee,
Why wilt thou err from me?”
and half unconsciously she repeated to herself the succeeding lines of
the same hymn; there was soothing in the thought.
Yet ever and again, as she grew calmer, came rushing in the painful
memory of her loss; and while she doubted not the wisdom and mercy
which had ordered all, and accepted meekly the burden of care which
seemed laid on her, her heart ached in bitterness when she remembered
what had been, and what was.
That hour of watching and waiting was intensely trying. She had been
occupied all the night, so eagerly and energetically, as to exclude
thought or anticipation; now she could only sit in silence, and weary,
worn out, sorrowful, and yet striving to be patient, remain quietly
expecting the painful task before her.
She wished to keep awake, and opening her Bible, she tried to fix her
eyes and thoughts upon it, and determined so to pass the time; but
blessed sleep stole over her so softly, that she knew not of its
approaches, and the tearful eyes closed, the heavy head dropped upon
the pillow beside it, and a deep unconsciousness, a perfect dreamless
repose wrapped all the past in oblivion, and brought the refreshment
which that young, but willing spirit needed to fulfil her destined
task. “He giveth His beloved sleep.”
Gwyneth was astonished that morning, when, on unclosing her eyes, she
discovered her eldest sister, half sitting, half lying on her pillow,
dressed as last night, and yet sleeping profoundly, even though tears
trembled on her eye-lashes, while her long and glossy brown hair lay
unbound and unbraided over her neck and cheek.
With the thoughtless impulse of her nature, she at once woke her up,
and eagerly inquired why she was there, what was the matter, what had
made her cry.
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