The Prussian OfficerLawrence, D. H. (David Herbert)
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The Prussian Officer
Lawrence, D. H. (David Herbert)
Fiction; Short stories
A few days after, old Mr Durant died. Miss Louisa saw Alfred once more,
but he was stiff before her now, treating her not like a person, but as
if she were some sort of will in command and he a separate, distinct
will waiting in front of her. She had never felt such utter steel-plate
separation from anyone. It puzzled her and frightened her. What had
become of him? And she hated the military discipline—she was
antagonistic to it. Now he was not himself. He was the will which obeys
set over against the will which commands. She hesitated over accepting
this. He had put himself out of her range. He had ranked himself
inferior, subordinate to her. And that was how he would get away from
her, that was how he would avoid all connection with her: by fronting
her impersonally from the opposite camp, by taking up the abstract
position of an inferior.
She went brooding steadily and sullenly over this, brooding and
brooding. Her fierce, obstinate heart could not give way. It clung to
its own rights. Sometimes she dismissed him. Why should he, inferior,
trouble her?
Then she relapsed to him, and almost hated him. It was his way of
getting out of it. She felt the cowardice of it, his calmly placing her
in a superior class, and placing himself inaccessibly apart, in an
inferior, as if she, the sensient woman who was fond of him, did not
count. But she was not going to submit. Dogged in her heart she held on
to him.
V
In six months’ time Miss Mary had married Mr Massy. There had been no
love-making, nobody had made any remark. But everybody was tense and
callous with expectation. When one day Mr Massy asked for Mary’s hand,
Mr Lindley started and trembled from the thin, abstract voice of the
little man. Mr Massy was very nervous, but so curiously absolute.
“I shall be very glad,” said the vicar, “but of course the decision
lies with Mary herself.” And his still feeble hand shook as he moved a
Bible on his desk.
The small man, keeping fixedly to his idea, padded out of the room to
find Miss Mary. He sat a long time by her, while she made some
conversation, before he had readiness to speak. She was afraid of what
was coming, and sat stiff in apprehension. She felt as if her body
would rise and fling him aside. But her spirit quivered and waited.
Almost in expectation she waited, almost wanting him. And then she knew
he would speak.
“I have already asked Mr Lindley,” said the clergyman, while suddenly
she looked with aversion at his little knees, “if he would consent to
my proposal.” He was aware of his own disadvantage, but his will was
set.
She went cold as she sat, and impervious, almost as if she had become
stone. He waited a moment nervously. He would not persuade her. He
himself never even heard persuasion, but pursued his own course. He
looked at her, sure of himself, unsure of her, and said:
“Will you become my wife, Mary?”
Still her heart was hard and cold. She sat proudly.
“I should like to speak to mama first,” she said.
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