The Secret Life: Being the Book of a HereticBisland, Elizabeth
Philosophy
The Secret Life: Being the Book of a Heretic
Bisland, Elizabeth
Diaries
I dreamed last night that I wore upon my breast a great necklace of
flat golden plates cut in the shape of winged things, and these were
linked together with other flat plates of turquoise. My garments were
of white semi-transparent stuff, and my limbs and body showed through
it. Before me stood a building of some sort, creamy yellow in colour
and of a style of architecture with which I am not familiar--though it
seemed familiar enough to me in my dreams. Now I have only a confused
sense of low domes set upon massive cubes. I was waiting for the
sun to rise. The air was warm and dry and that white glamour of the
dawning light lay upon the surrounding country, which seemed flat and
not very verdant. Suddenly the rays of the sun, which rose apparently
immediately behind this dome, spread out about it like an aureole
(Gavin Douglas's "Golden fanys")--and this seemed a signal for me to
lift my arms above my head and recite a sort of litany--and then--it
all passed away....
Most of one's dreams are confused and blurred by a sense of conflicting
personalities. There is generally a sort of impression that while the
incidents are apparently happening to one's self, they are happening
in reality to some other being, not quite one's self; but this one was
very clear, with no arrière pensée. I have worked out a theory which
seems to me to quite solve the mystery of dreams.
Lifelong familiarity with the phenomena of sleep--with the trooping
phantoms that inhabit slumber's dusk realm--has so dulled our wonder
at the mystery of our double existence of the dark that night after
night we open with calm incuriousness the door into that ghostly
underworld, where we hold insane revels with fantastic spectres, babble
with foolish laughter at witless jests, stain our souls with useless
crime, or fly with freezing blood from the grasp of unnamable horrors,
and with the morning we saunter serenely back from these adventures
into the warm precincts of the cheerful day, unmoved, unstartled, and
forgetting.
The hypnotists, because they can make a man feel pain or pleasure
without material cause, are gaped upon with awed surprise by the same
man who once every twenty-four hours of his life, with no more magic
potion than healthy fatigue, with no greater weapon for wonder working
than a pillow, may create for himself phantasmal illusions beside which
all mesmeric suggestions are but the flattest of commonplace.
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