The Secret Life: Being the Book of a HereticBisland, Elizabeth
Philosophy
The Secret Life: Being the Book of a Heretic
Bisland, Elizabeth
Diaries
"Ye shall be as gods, having eaten of that tree"--and like a god he
sits in the dusk of the soul's seat, knowing the past, predicating the
future, calmly beholding the fulfilling of our destiny. And yet is his
grim wisdom of no avail, since--a shadowy Cassandra--he warns in vain.
His deity-ship is of no more worth than that of the Olympian heavens,
which might punish or reward, but could not divert the decrees of a
power higher than itself. It is indeed the fate of all gods to have
their creations caught from between their shaping hands by the blind,
fumbling fingers with the shears. Gods may teach; may command; may ban
or bless, but the being once made is Fate's creature, not theirs.
This cynical, impotent _döppelganger_ goes by many names. His Christian
cognomen is Conscience, and his voice is raised to exalt Christian
tenets of clean living and high thinking.
"Thou shalt surely die," he declaims from the altar where he wears with
cheerful indifference the livery of a faith in which he has no part,
and we walk contentedly in the path he designates, flattering ourselves
upon being upheld and guided by the voice of omnipotent truth, until
passion trips our heels with some hidden snare, and, rolling headlong
in the mire, we lift our stained faces in astonishment to behold that
calm-lidded countenance all unstirred by our wild mishap. He foresaw,
but he was helpless to prevent, nor does he greatly care, since he
also knows that age after age every reincarnation of the spirit must be
tempted anew by the ever-renewed, ever-lustful, unalterable flesh.
Weissman diverts himself and indulges the Teutonic weakness for
word-building by naming this double self the "germ-plasm"--that
immortal, eternal seed of life that links the generations in an
unbroken chain; changing and developing only through the unreckonable
processes of time, and taking heed not at all of the mere passing
accidents of fleeting avatars.
Why should not this germ-plasm, this eternal ghost, be infinitely
sophisticated? What surprises can its mere momentary envelope contrive
for a consciousness as old as the moon? If temptations seduce the young
flesh, though the old, old soul declares with scorn that teeth are set
on edge by the eating of sour grapes, it is not surprised at all when
the body persists in its will to seize upon the fruit of its desire,
having seen in everyone of a myriad generations the same obstinacy and
weakness of the flesh, which learns little and very hardly from the
spirit.
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