American fiction -- 20th century; Divorce -- Fiction; Married people -- Fiction; Rich people -- Fiction
"Believe?" He smiled indulgently as he echoed his wife's inquiry, but
his eyes snapped and his shock of hair seemed to stand up straighter.
His manner expressed a mixture of amused condescension and the tartness
of a dogged spirit suspicious of attack. "I believe, for one thing,
that the laws of nature are never violated, and that their integrity is
a grander attribute of divinity than the various sensational devices
which the orthodox maintain that an all-wise God employs to attract the
attention of men to Himself. I believe also that you in your secret
soul entirely agree with me."
Constance was silent a moment. "And yet you haven't answered my
question, Emil. You haven't told me what you do believe. Why isn't
religion just as real and true a part of man as any other instinct of
his being? It has been a constantly growing attribute."
"And the nonsense is being gradually squeezed out of it. Why should I
accept the dogma of that reverend father in God that a man can do
nothing by his own efforts? Isn't it a finer thought that we grow by
virtue of our struggles and that the free and independent soul wins the
battle of life by making the most of itself?"
Emil spoke with fierce rhetoric. To his wife's ear he seemed to be
pointing out besides that his own soul was fighting this battle and
that he was willing to be judged by the results regardless of doctrine.
Constance had long ago convinced herself that his bark was worse than
his bite; that he believed more than he really admitted of the
essentials of religion; that he acknowledged his responsibility to God
and was devoting his days to advancing the useful work of the world,
and incidentally providing for her happiness at the same time. His
plea for credit to the independent soul which overcame temptation and
obstacles was, at least, manly, and a sign of courage. She scarcely
heeded the quotation from the "Rubaiyat," which he was murmuring as a
corollary to his apostrophe to free and noble endeavor.
O thou who didst with pitfall and with gin
Beset the path I was to wander in,
Thou wilt not with predestined evil round
Enmesh and then impute my fall to sin?
She had heard him quote these lines and others of like import before,
and she had learned some of them by rote. She recognized their charm
and cleverness and to a certain extent their plausibility; but she had
not the slightest impulse to revolutionize her own faith. Her
absorbing thought, for the moment, was how to be true to her husband
without being false to the church. Mr. Prentiss, in spite of his
appeal, had left her conscience unconvinced, and now her clear-headed,
fearless Emil had suddenly given her soul the cue to expression. Her
brown eyes kindled rapturously and trustfully as she said:
"It's the life after all which counts, isn't it? Everything else is of
secondary importance."
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