The Varieties of Religious Experience: A Study in Human NatureJames, William
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The Varieties of Religious Experience: A Study in Human Nature
James, William
Conversion; Experience (Religion); Philosophy and religion; Psychology, Religious; Religion
“It was about September, 1884, when I had the first experience. On
the previous night I had had, after getting into bed at my rooms
in College, a vivid tactile hallucination of being grasped by the
arm, which made me get up and search the room for an intruder; but
the sense of presence properly so called came on the next night.
After I had got into bed and blown out the candle, I lay awake
awhile thinking on the previous night’s experience, when suddenly
I _felt_ something come into the room and stay close to my bed. It
remained only a minute or two. I did not recognize it by any
ordinary sense, and yet there was a horribly unpleasant
‘sensation’ connected with it. It stirred something more at the
roots of my being than any ordinary perception. The feeling had
something of the quality of a very large tearing vital pain
spreading chiefly over the chest, but within the organism—and yet
the feeling was not _pain_ so much as _abhorrence_. At all events,
something was present with me, and I knew its presence far more
surely than I have ever known the presence of any fleshly living
creature. I was conscious of its departure as of its coming: an
almost instantaneously swift going through the door, and the
‘horrible sensation’ disappeared.
“On the third night when I retired my mind was absorbed in some
lectures which I was preparing, and I was still absorbed in these
when I became aware of the actual presence (though not of the
_coming_) of the thing that was there the night before, and of the
‘horrible sensation.’ I then mentally concentrated all my effort
to charge this ‘thing,’ if it was evil, to depart, if it was _not_
evil, to tell me who or what it was, and if it could not explain
itself, to go, and that I would compel it to go. It went as on the
previous night, and my body quickly recovered its normal state.
“On two other occasions in my life I have had precisely the same
‘horrible sensation.’ Once it lasted a full quarter of an hour. In
all three instances the certainty that there in outward space
there stood _something_ was indescribably _stronger_ than the
ordinary certainty of companionship when we are in the close
presence of ordinary living people. The something seemed close to
me, and intensely more real than any ordinary perception. Although
I felt it to be like unto myself, so to speak, or finite, small,
and distressful, as it were, I didn’t recognize it as any
individual being or person.”
Of course such an experience as this does not connect itself with the
religious sphere. Yet it may upon occasion do so; and the same
correspondent informs me that at more than one other conjuncture he had
the sense of presence developed with equal intensity and abruptness, only
then it was filled with a quality of joy.
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