Lesbians -- England -- Social conditions -- Fiction
Violet was already full of feminine poses; she loved dolls, but not
quite so much as she pretended. People said: ‘Look at Violet, she’s like
a little mother; it’s so touching to see that instinct in a child!’ Then
Violet would become still more touching. She was always thrusting her
dolls upon Stephen, making her undress them and put them to bed. ‘Now
you’re Nanny, Stephen, and I’m Gertrude’s mother, or you can be mother
this time if you’d rather—Oh, be careful, you’ll break her! Now you’ve
pulled off a button! I do think you might play more like I do!’ And then
Violet knitted, or said that she knitted—Stephen had never seen
anything but knots. ‘Can’t _you_ knit?’ she would say, looking
scornfully at Stephen, ‘I can—Mother called me a dear little
housewife!’ Then Stephen would lose her temper and speak rudely: ‘You’re
a dear little sop, that’s what you are!’ For hours she must play stupid
doll-games with Violet, because Roger would not always play real games
in the garden. He hated to be beaten, yet how could she help it? Could
she help throwing straighter than Roger?
They had nothing whatever in common, these children, but the Antrims
were neighbours, and even Sir Philip, indulgent though he was, insisted
that Stephen should have friends of her own age to play with. He had
spoken quite sharply on several occasions when the child had pleaded to
be allowed to stay at home. Indeed he spoke sharply that very day at
luncheon:
‘Eat your pudding please, Stephen; come now, finish it quickly! If all
this fuss is about the little Antrims, then Father won’t have it, it’s
ridiculous, darling.’
So Stephen had hastily swallowed her pudding, and escaped upstairs to
the nursery.
2
The Antrims lived half a mile from Ledbury, on the other side of the
hills. It was quite a long drive to their house from Morton—Stephen was
driven over in the dog-cart. She sat beside Williams in gloomy silence,
with the collar of her coat turned up to her ears. She was filled with a
sense of bitter injustice; why should they insist on this stupid
expedition? Even her father had been cross at luncheon because she
preferred to stay at home with him. Why should she be forced to know
other children? They didn’t want her nor she them. And above all the
Antrims! That idiotic Violet—Violet who was learning to ride
side-saddle—and Roger strutting about in his Etons, and bragging,
always bragging because he was a boy—and their mother who was quite
sure to patronize Stephen, because being grown-up made her put on a
manner. Stephen could hear her infuriating voice, the voice she reserved
for children ‘Ah, here you are, Stephen! Now then, little people, run
along and have a good feed in the schoolroom. There’s plenty of cake; I
knew Stephen was coming; we all know Stephen’s capacity for cake!’
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