The World's Illusion, Volume 2 (of 2): RuthWassermann, Jakob
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The World's Illusion, Volume 2 (of 2): Ruth
Wassermann, Jakob
German fiction -- Translations into English
“My dear Fräulein:--While arranging some documents which my friend
Christian Wahnschaffe left in the apartment which I have taken off his
hands, I found your letter among other things. Since he has failed
for some months, with very rare exceptions, to answer any letters, I
think I may take it for granted that you have not heard from him. I
can hardly dare hope to make up for his negligence. Who am I? What am
I to you? You may not even recall me. I, on the contrary, remember
you very exactly, and regret most constantly that I did not succeed
in making you more conscious of my devotion and sympathy. But I am
diffident by nature, and the fear of being repulsed or having my
feelings misunderstood has assumed morbid intensity in my mind. Do not
therefore, pray, regard it as a tactless importunity if I venture to
write you in Christian’s stead. The thought of your uncertainty and
fruitless waiting pained me, and I determined to put an end to it so
far as it lies in my power to do.
“I believe I can give you the assurance that Christian Wahnschaffe
is not as guilty, so far as you are concerned, as he may seem to be,
unless we agree that his guilt toward all who knew and loved him is the
same. To speak of his practising neglect or failing in a duty would
be unbecoming in me as well as incorrect in fact. He has sloughed off
his former skin, and the coin in which he pays to-day is of another
mintage. Whether its value is higher or lower than formerly it is not
my office to decide. He has, in the proverbial expression, burned his
bridges behind him. What he does may arouse the horror of the morally
immature; I, too, I confess, find the motivation obscure and difficult.
But one must have patience and faith in a benevolent providence; for we
all eat the bread of some abyss and it is bitter on each man’s lips.
“It is in view of the uncommon circumstances that I beg you to pardon
my taking upon myself the part of an _alter ego_ of our friend and
making his affairs, as it were, my own. I have done it only after
mature reflection; and what may at first seem to you sheer forwardness,
and an indelicate intrusion into secrets that are not my own, has been
prompted purely by a profound regard for your peace of mind. In closing
may I express to you my deep and sincere sympathy? You have suffered
from terrible visitations. God in His goodness will assuredly brighten
your path again.”
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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