Humorous stories; London (England) -- Fiction; Orphans -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
“The fact, put briefly, is that I cannot stand fear. Any evidence of
timidity in a man inspires me with rage, and in a woman with disgust.
However attractive she may be, at the slightest sign that she fears
me, love vanishes completely. I cannot stand her, I cannot bear to
be with her. This is the more unfortunate because I am by nature a
dominant person. I have been told that my eyes are mesmeric. I do
not believe in this nonsense, but certainly women seem to find it
difficult to meet my gaze fairly and squarely. I have a somewhat
hasty temper, and nothing exasperates it more than the attempt to
smooth it down, accompanied as it always is by fear of what I may do
next. I want a woman who does not care one straw what I do next--who
will be absolutely free from every form of cowardice, physical or
moral, as I am myself. The mother of my children must not be a
coward.
“I am thirty-seven years of age, wealthy, and not, I believe, much
uglier than other men, and I cannot find the woman that I require.
Possibly, among the many cases which must have been brought to your
notice, you will have come across some such woman. If so, and if you
will arrange a meeting between her and me, I will pay you the sum of
one hundred pounds, provided, of course, that I am satisfied on the
question of her courage. If, though satisfied on this point, I do
not wish to marry her, I will pay her also the sum of one hundred
pounds for the trouble which I have given her. She must, of course,
not be older than I am myself, and I confess that good looks are a
great consideration with me. Social standing is of no importance
whatever. I do not allow popular prejudices to interfere with my
actions, even when they are of the least importance, and far less do
I admit of such interference in my choice of a wife.--I am, my dear
madam, faithfully yours, ----.”
I do not give his signature. It is a name that you will find in
Debrett, though I did not look it up at the time. That letter gave
me a great deal to think over. There was a queer mixture of bragging
and modesty about it. Yet, I asked myself, how could he give me the
facts which it was necessary for me to know without appearing to
brag? The commission of one hundred pounds was certainly tempting,
but none of my correspondents occurred to me as being likely to meet
his requirements, even if they had not had their own affairs on their
hands. Fear is a feminine quality. Women have a right to it;
without being cowardly, they may be able to realise a danger, and
they may have delicate nerves. Nor can I see that they are any the
worse for it. After a little reflection I wrote to say that I
believed I should be able to assist him if he could wait for about a
fortnight. And I had a reply on the following day to say that he
would wait with pleasure.
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