Jewish fiction; Jews -- Fiction; Short stories, Yiddish -- Translations into English; Yiddish fiction -- Translations into English
Dr. Lazarovitch became more and more restless as the time of his
son’s arrival from Moscow approached. The entire house lapsed into
silence. All seemed afraid of something. The doctor began to feel like
a stranger in his own house, and could not find a place for himself
anywhere. He ceased to go to the club, and could no longer sit over the
“Ryech” in his cabinet. First it seemed to him that he was restless
because he was unused to things, and was afraid of the new event in his
home life. As soon as he would get used to the fact that his son was a
Christian, and the town would know of it, and all would cease to talk
of it at last, he too, would become quiet, and his life would resume
its natural course. But soon he realized that his restlessness was not
due to any _strange_ circumstances, but lay much deeper. He was afraid
of something, and did not know the cause. He said a thousand times to
himself that nothing had happened, that his son’s apostasy had changed
neither himself nor his son. He himself was not so religious and
fanatical as to believe that his son’s change of religion should have
a deeper meaning, because, in truth, neither he nor his son believed
in God. So how could his son’s outer metamorphosis change his inner
psychological condition? And again, would it pay the able young man to
give up his career, his abilities, his future, all for the sake of a
religious superstition? Had not Mikhail acted logically when he removed
once and for all the obstacles that barricaded the path of his future?
But all these explanations could bring the doctor no rest. He felt
that something more than a mere outward change had taken place; that
a wall stood between him and his son; that it divided one generation
from the other; that his son was not a continuation of himself, but
that something ended in his own self, and something new had begun in
his son; that they already belonged to two different worlds. And he was
afraid and restless when he contemplated the wall that stood between
them.
Two days before Passover, Mikhail came home. The doctor could not see
him. He was afraid to meet him face to face. He would run about among
his patients and come home late at night, and when in the mornings he
heard his son’s voice in the next room he would tremble. He would look
through a crack in the door and try to see how the boy looked. But his
son had not changed at all. The same childish face with its familiar
childish eyes which always touched the doctor’s fathering heart. The
doctor wondered that his son had not at all changed after baptism. He
still looked exactly the same. But the doctor was afraid of him.
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