“I should have consoled myself--_en attendant_. Oh, yes, I should have
gone on writing; but I would not have let myself become a poor old maid
for any man in the world. That is one thing I admire about Frâulein
Klinkhardt. You were asking where she was to-night. I know, but I
won't be indiscreet. She is _fiancee_ too. She is not getting less
young--_mais elle s'amuse, elle--en attendant_.”
Felicia did not grasp the full significance of Mme. Popea's
insinuations, but she caught enough to set her cheeks burning, and she
cast an appealing glance at Mrs. Stapleton.
“Won't you play us something?” said the latter, kindly, in response to
the appeal.
“Ah, do!” said Mme. Popea, serenely. “You play so charmingly.”
Felicia went to the piano, and ran her fingers over the keys. She did
not feel in a mood for playing; music with her was an accomplishment,
not an art to which she could instinctively bring bruised and quivering
fibres to be soothed. She played mechanically, thinking of other things.
Once she struck a false note, and her ear caught a little indrawn hiss
from Madame Popea, which brought her wandering attention sharply back.
But her heart was not in it. She was thinking of poor little Miss
Bunter, and the weary years of waiting, and how sad she must have been
as, year by year, she had seen the youth dying out of her eyes and the
bloom fading from her cheek. Frâulein Klinkhardt, too, who was amusing
herself--_en attendant_; she felt as if something impure had touched
her.
At the next false note, Mme. Popea rose softly, and went to Mrs.
Stapleton.
“I am going to bed,” she whispered. “These English girls are charming;
but they should have dumb pianos made for them, that would speak only to
their own souls.”
When Felicia heard the click of the closing door, she started round on
the music-stool.
“I hope I haven't driven Mme. Popea away with my strumming,” she said,
guiltily.
“Oh, no, dear,” replied Mrs. Stapleton, with cheerful assurance. “She is
a lazy little body that always goes to bed early.”
Felicia rose, took up _Le Journal Amusant_, which Mme. Popea had left
behind, and sitting down, began to look through it. A few seconds later,
however, she crumpled it fiercely, and threw it on the ground with a cry
of disgust.
“How can ladies read such things?” she exclaimed.
She had never seen such a picture before, never conceived that the
like could even have been visualized by the imagination. Its cynical
immodesty, its obscene suggestion, gave her a sickening sensation of
loathing.
Mrs. Stapleton picked up the offending journal, and skimmed over its
pages with calm eyes and a contemptuous curl of the lip.
“Oh, how can you?” cried Felicia, writhing.
The other smiled, and, opening the door of the great porcelain stove,
thrust the paper in amongst the glowing coals, and closed the door
again. Then she came quickly up to the couch where Felicia was, and
sitting down by her side, took her hand.