A Virginia Girl in the Civil War, 1861-1865: being a record of the actual experiences of the wife of a Confederate officer — John Locke — John Shaqi
A Virginia Girl in the Civil War, 1861-1865: being a record of the actual experiences of the wife of a Confederate officer
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“I’m not going to allow you to attempt such a thing!” he said gravely.
“I want to see mother--and to get a new uniform--and other things.”
Dan looked at me as if he thought I was crazy.
“Milicent is going--and I think I ought to go with her.”
“I don’t want Millie to go--I don’t think she ought to try it; and I
won’t permit you to go off on such a wild-goose chase.”
I was silent a minute, trying to think how to tell him as respectfully
as I could that I differed with him on this point. It all ended by my
repeating in a stupid, poll-parrot fashion:
“I’m going with Millie to Baltimore.”
Dan looked at me as if he would like to spank me! Here was his
obedient, docile girl-bride blossomed into a contumacious, rebellious
wife!
I was ready to cry--nay, I was crying--but I still affirmed that I
must go to Baltimore. Dan reasoned and argued, but that didn’t do
any good. Then he swore, but swearing didn’t alter the case. The
case was, indeed, beyond Dan, but he made a long and hard fight, and
didn’t surrender for a long while. I cried all night, and he reasoned
all night. When he saw that the case was hopeless, he started us to
Petersburg under suitable escort. We had to go first to Petersburg in
order to get the money which we wished to take North to exchange for
all the goods and chattels we might be able to smuggle South.
Dan detailed a driver and an ambulance for our service and Lieutenant
Johnston to act as escort. The morning we started it looked cloudy. Dan
tried to dissuade us. I said I had always been a good weather prophet
and I didn’t think it would rain. Millie reinforced me.
But when it actually came to telling Dan good-by, I broke down. His
threadbare clothes plead with me both ways. I hung around his neck and
did so much crying that he got sorry for me and helped me off.
“When I get you a new uniform, Dan--” I sobbed, as he tucked the old
blanket shawl about me where I sat in the ambulance.
“Uniform be ----!” growled Dan. Then, seeing my crestfallen look, “I
reckon I’ll like it well enough, Nell--when it comes. Good-by, girls.
You’re mighty big geese. God bless you! If you change your minds in
Petersburg--but, Lord! an earthquake wouldn’t change you! Good-by, my
darling--God bless you! I reckon you’ll get along all right.”
The rusty coat-sleeve was out of sight, and I was on my way.
CHAPTER X
I CROSS THE COUNTRY IN AN AMBULANCE AND THE PAMUNKEY ON A LIGHTER
As we traveled along farther and farther from Dan, I kept on crying
softly to myself now and then, turning my face from Milicent. Presently
her arm stole around me.
“Do you feel so badly, darling?”
“I hate to leave Dan--I can’t bear it!”
“Then we’ll turn back, Nell.”
And our astonished driver and escort received orders to turn back
toward camp.
“But in a few days,” I sobbed, “Dan--will--be--gone. And you--will
be--gone. And I can’t stand that!”
And to the further confusion of escort, driver, and mules, we were
turned again.