“My dear Clytie, that is all nonsense,” said Mrs. Blather, who prided
herself, above all things, on being a woman of common sense. “As a
matter of fact, you can't go to London, because you would have no one to
live with, and you would only have your hundred a year to support you,
as papa has lost a great deal of money lately and can hardly afford
to give you an allowance. When your aunt was alive it was a different
thing. The whole idea of going to live alone in London is silly. So
there's an end of it.”
Mrs. Blather went on with her sewing, with mingled feelings of content
at having done her duty and disappointment in the failure of promise of
reform in Clytie. She would have judged her sister mercifully had she
been able. She was naturally a gentle woman, full of kindness. But her
canons of duty would not allow her to encourage or condone wilfulness,
caprice, and a tendency to wrong-doing. She earnestly believed it was
for Clytie's good to stay in Durdleham. The girl's wider needs she could
not understand.
Clytie turned from the hearthrug, where she had been standing, to the
drawing-room window, and looked out blankly at the rain. Her young face
was set rather hard; her lips quivered a little; her heart beat quicker
than usual. A struggle was taking place within her--the struggle between
the girl and the woman. She felt that the great moment of her life had
come. She must choose. Which should it be: the dazzling light with its
weird shadows of things unseen, or the gray, easeful glimmer in which
the familiar realities cast no shadow? Which should it be: daughterly
duty and maidenly retirement, or the sundering of home ties forever and
going out, one woman, to battle with the world?
She turned away from the window at last and called to her sister. The
latter looked up and was filled with foreboding as she saw the girl's
pale face.
“Yes. What is the matter, Clytie?”
“I have made up my mind, Gracie,” she said a little huskily. “I am going
to London to live by myself. I can share lodgings with one of the girls
I know at the Slade School. There will be no difficulty. I can earn
money; I have already earned a little. As for mamma's money, I am of age
now, and it is my own to do what I like with it--as you and Janet do.
Let this be an end of the discussion, Gracie. I am going.”
CHAPTER III.