I have stood at the front gate of the house and watched the Thames,
some thirty yards away, flow between its alder-grown banks; the wide,
lush meadows and cornfields beyond dotted here and there with the red
roofs of farms and spreading amid the quiet greenery of oaks and
chestnuts to the low-lying Oxfordshire hills; I have breathed in the
peace of the evening air and I have found myself very near in spirit to
Jeremy Wendover, who stood, as he notes, many and many a summer
afternoon at that self-same gate, watching the selfsame scene, far away
from the fever and the fret of life.
I have thought, therefore, that instead of publishing his diary I might
with some degree of sympathy set forth in brief the one dramatic
episode in his inglorious career.
II
The overwhelming factor in Jeremy Wendover's life was the appalling,
inconceivable hideousness of his face. The refined, cultivated, pious
gentleman was cursed with a visage which it would have pleased Dante to
ascribe to a White Guelph whom he particularly disliked, and would have
made Orcagna shudder in the midst of his dreams of shapes of hell. As
a child of six, in a successful effort to rescue a baby sister, he had
fallen headforemost into a great wood fire, and when they picked him up
his face "was like unto a charred log that had long smouldered."
Almost the semblance of humanity had been wiped from him, and to all
beholders he became a thing of horror. Men turned their heads away,
women shivered and children screamed at his approach. He was a pariah,
condemned from early boyhood to an awful loneliness. His parents, a
certain Sir Julius Wendover, Baronet, and his wife, his elder brother
and his sisters--they must have been a compassionless family--turned
from him as from an evil and pestilential thing. Love never touched
him with its consoling feather, and for love the poor wretch pined his
whole youth long. Human companionship, even, was denied him. He seems
to have lived alone in a wing of a great house, seldom straying beyond
the bounds of the park, under the tutorship of a reverend but scholarly
sot who was too drunken and obese and unbuttoned to be admitted into
the family circle. This fellow, one Doctor Tubbs, of St. Catherine's
College, Cambridge, seems to have shown Jeremy some semblance of
affection, but chiefly while in his cups, "when," as Jeremy puts it
bitterly, "he was too much like unto the beasts that perish to
distinguish between me and a human being." When sober he railed at the
boy for a monster, and frequently chastised him for his lack of beauty.
But, in some strange way, in alternate fits of slobbering and
castigating, he managed to lay the groundwork of a fine education,
teaching Jeremy the classics, Italian and French, some mathematics, and
the elements of philosophy and theology; he also discoursed much to him
on the great world, of which, till his misfortunes came upon him, he
boasted of having been a distinguished ornament; and when he had three