bottles of wine inside him he told his charge very curious and
instructive things indeed.
So Jeremy grew to man's estate, sensitive, shy, living in the world of
books and knowing little, save at second-hand, of the ways of men and
women. But with all the secrets of the birds and beasts in the
far-stretching Warwickshire park he was intimately acquainted. He
became part of the woodland life. Squirrels would come to him and
munch their acorns on his shoulder.
"So intimate was I in this innocent community," says he, not without
quiet humour, "that I have been a wet-nurse to weasels and called in as
physician to a family of moles."
When Sir Julius died, Jeremy received his younger son's portion
(fortunately, it was a goodly one) and was turned neck and crop out of
the house by his ill-conditioned brother. Tubbs, having also suffered
ignominious expulsion, persuaded him to go on the grand tour. They
started. But they only got as far as Abbeville on the road to Paris,
where Tubbs was struck down by an apoplexy of which he died. Up to
that point the sot's company had enabled Jeremy to endure the insult,
ribaldry and terror that attended his unspeakable deformity; but, left
alone, he lost heart; mankind rejected him as a pack of wolves rejects
a maimed cub. Stricken with shame and humiliation he crept back to
England and established himself in the maltster's house at Bullingford,
guided thither by no other consideration than that it had been the
birthplace of the dissolute Tubbs. He took up his lonely abode there
as a boy of three-and-twenty, and there he spent the long remainder of
his life.
III
The great event happened in his thirty-fourth year. You may picture
him as a solitary, scholarly figure living in the little Tudor house,
with its mullioned windows, set in the midst of an old-world garden
bright with stocks and phlox and hollyhocks and great pink roses, its
southern wall generously glowing with purple plums. Indoors, the house
was somewhat dark. The casement window of the main living-room was
small and overshadowed by the heavy ivy outside. The furniture, of
plain dark oak, mainly consisted of bookcases, in which were ranged the
solemn, leather-covered volumes that were Jeremy's world. A great
table in front of the window contained the books of the moment, the
latest news-sheets from London, and the great brass-clasped volume in
which he wrote his diary. In front of it stood a great straight-backed
chair.
You may picture him on a late August afternoon, sitting in this chair,
writing his diary by the fading light. His wig lay on the table, for
the weather was close. He paused, pen in hand, and looked wistfully at
the mellow eastern sky, lost in thought. Then he wrote these words: