_O Lord Jesus, fill me plentifully with Thy love, which passeth the
love of woman; for love of woman never will be mine, and therefore, O
Lord, I require Thy love bountifully: I yearn for love even as a weaned
child. Even as a weaned child yearns for the breast of its mother, so
yearn I for love._
He closed and clasped the book with a sigh, put on his wig, rose and,
going into the tiny hall, opened the kitchen door and announced to his
household, one ancient and incompetent crone, his intention of taking
the air. Then he clapped on his old three-cornered hat and, stick in
hand, went out of the front gate into the light of the sunset. He
stood for a while watching the deep reflections of the alders and
willows in the river and the golden peace of the meadows beyond, and
his heart was uplifted in thankfulness for the beauty of the earth. He
was a tall, thin man, with the stoop of the scholar and, despite his
rough, country-made clothes, the unmistakable air of the
eighteenth-century gentleman. The setting sun shone full on the
piteous medley of marred features that served him for a face.
A woman, sickle on arm, leading a toddling child, passed by with
averted head. But she curtsied and said respectfully: "Good evening,
your honour." The child looked at him and with a cry of fear shrank
into the mother's skirts. Jeremy touched his hat.
"Good evening, Mistress Blackacre. I trust your husband is recovered
from his fever."
"Thanks to your honour's kindness," said the woman, her eyes always
turned from him, "he is well-nigh recovered. For shame of yourself!"
she added, shaking the child.
"Nay, nay," said Jeremy kindly. "'Tis not the urchin's fault that he
met a bogey in broad daylight."
He strolled along the river bank, pleased at his encounter. In that
little backwater of the world where he had lived secluded for ten years
folks had learned to suffer him--nay, more, to respect him: and though
they seldom looked him in the face their words were gentle and
friendly. He could even jest at his own misfortune.
"God is good," he murmured as he walked with head bent down and hands
behind his back, "and the earth is full of His goodness. Yet if He in
His mercy could only give me a companion in my loneliness, as He gives
to every peasant, bird and beast----"
A sigh ended the sentence. He was young and not always able to control
the squabble between sex and piety. The words had scarcely passed his
lips, however, when he discerned a female figure seated on the bank,
some fifty yards away. His first impulse--an impulse which the habit
of years would, on ordinary occasions, have rendered imperative--was to
make a wide detour round the meadows; but this evening the spirit of
mild revolt took possession of him and guided his steps in the
direction of the lady--for lady he perceived her to be when he drew a
little nearer.