You see, also, that but for these honest souls to whom a musician like
Fardetti was a sort of blood-brother, the evening of the old man's days
might have been one of tragic sadness. But even their affection and
his glad pride in the brilliant success of his old pupil, Geoffrey
Chase, could not mitigate the one great sorrow of his life. The
violin, yes; he had played it well; he had not aimed at a great
soloist's fame, for want of early training, and he had never dreamed
such unrealisable dreams; but other dreams had he dreamed with
passionate intensity. He had dreamed of being a great composer, and he
had beaten his heart out against the bars that shut him from the great
mystery. A waltz or two, a few songs, a catchy march, had been
published and performed, and had brought him unprized money and a
little hateful repute; but the compositions into which he had poured
his soul remained in dusty manuscript, despised and rejected of musical
men.
For many years the artist's imperious craving to create and hope and
will kept him serene. Then, in the prime of his days, a tremendous
inspiration shook him. He had a divine message to proclaim to the
world, a song of life itself, a revelation. It was life,
indestructible, eternal. It was the seed that grew into the tree; the
tree that flourished lustily, and then grew bare and stark and
perished; the seed, again, of the tree that rose unconquerable into the
laughing leaf of spring. It was the kiss of lovers that, when they
were dead and gone, lived immortal on the lips of grandchildren. It
was the endless roll of the seasons, the majestic, triumphant rhythm of
existence. It was a cosmic chant, telling of things as only music
could tell of them, and as no musician had ever told of them before.