He attempted the impossible, you will say. He did. That was the pity
of it. He spent the last drop of his heart's blood over his sonata.
He wrote it and rewrote it, wasting years, but never could he imprison
within those remorseless ruled lines the elusive sounds that shook his
being. An approximation to his dream reached the stage of a completed
score. But he knew that it was thin and lifeless. The themes that
were to be developed into magic harmonies tinkled into commonplace.
The shell of this vast conception was there, but the shell alone. The
thing could not live without the unseizable, and that he had not
seized. Angelo Fardetti, broken down by toil and misery, fell very
sick. Doctors recommended Brighton. Docile as a child, he went to
Brighton, and there a pretty lady who admired his playing at the Monday
Popular Concerts at St. James's Hall, got hold of him and married him.
When she ran away, a year later, with a dashing young stockbroker, he
took the score of the sonata that was to be the whole interpretation of
life from its half-forgotten hiding-place, played it through on the
piano, burst into a passion of tears, in the uncontrollable Italian
way, sold up his house, and went to lodge with Anton Kirilov. To no
son or daughter of man did he ever show a note or play a bar of the
sonata. And never again did he write a line of music. Bravely and
humbly he faced life, though the tragedy of failure made him
prematurely old. And all through the years the sublime message
reverberated in his soul and haunted his dreams; and his was the bitter
sorrow of knowing that never should that message be delivered for the
comforting of the world.
The loss of his position as first violin forced him, at sixty, to take
more obscure engagements. That was when he followed the Kirilovs to
Peckham. And then he met the joy of his old age--his one pupil of
genius, Geoffrey Chase, an untrained lad of fourteen, the son of a
well-to-do seed merchant in the High Street.
"His father thinks it waste of time," said Mrs. Chase, a gentle,
mild-eyed woman, when she brought the boy to him, "but Geoffrey is so
set on it--and so I've persuaded his father to let him have lessons."
"Do you, too, love music?" he asked.
Her eyes grew moist, and she nodded.
"Poor lady! He should not let you starve. Never mind," he said,
patting her shoulder. "Take comfort. I will teach your boy to play
for you."