We discussed my case and the miraculous skill of Henry Deane.
Presently she left me, promising to return. The tones of her voice
seemed to linger, as perfume would, in the darkness.
That was the beginning of it. It was love, not at first sight, but at
first sound. Pain and anxiety stood like abashed goblins at the back
of my mind. Valerie Deane's voice danced in front like a triumphant
fairy. When she came and talked sick-room platitudes I had sooner
listened to her than to the music of the spheres. At that early stage
what she said mattered so little. I would have given rapturous heed to
her reading of logarithmic tables. I asked her silly questions merely
to elicit the witchery of her voice. When Melba sings, do you take
count of the idiot words? You close eyes and intellect and just let
the divine notes melt into your soul. And when you are lying on your
back, blind and helpless, as I was, your soul is a very sponge for
anything beautiful that can reach it. After a while she gave me
glimpses of herself, sweet and womanly; and we drifted from commonplace
into deeper things. She was the perfect companion. We discussed all
topics, from chiffons to Schopenhauer. Like most women, she execrated
Schopenhauer. She must have devoted much of her time to me; yet I
ungratefully complained of the long intervals between her visits. But
oh! those interminable idle hours of darkness, in which all the
thoughts that had ever been thought were rethought over and over again
until the mind became a worn-out rag-bag! Only those who have been
through the valley of this shadow can know its desolation. Only they
can understand the magic of the unbeheld Valerie Deane.
"What is the meaning of this?" she asked one morning. "Nurse says you
are fretful and fractious."
"She insisted on soaping the soles of my feet and tickling me into
torments, which made me fractious, and I'm dying to see your face,
which makes me fretful."
"Since when have you been dying?" she asked.
"From the first moment I heard your voice saying, 'How are you feeling
now?' It's irritating to have a friend and not in the least know what
she is like. Besides," I added, "your voice is so beautiful that your
face must be the same."
She laughed.
"Your face is like your laugh," I declared.
"If my face were my fortune I should come off badly," she said in a
light tone. I think she was leaning over the foot-rail, and I longed
for her nearer presence.
"Nurse has tied this bandage a little too tightly," I said mendaciously.
I heard her move, and in a moment her fingers were busy about my eyes.
I put up my hand and touched them. She patted my hand away.
"Please don't be foolish," she remarked. "When you recover your sight
and find what an exceedingly plain girl I am, you'll go away like the
others, and never want to see me again."
"What others?" I exclaimed.
"Do you suppose you're the only patient I have had to manage?"