The newly wedded pair walked on for a long while in silence. Minna
pressed her husband’s arm tightly, waiting for him to speak, half afraid
of breaking in upon his thoughts, which she instinctively felt must be
deeper than her own. Besides, the bareness of the ceremony had left her
with a vague depression. It was a cold, grim episode in the heart of her
romance. The walk grew hateful. She longed for the shelter of four walls
and the dearer, warming shelter of his arms. Until they were about
her, life was a limbo where nothing was defined. She glanced up at him
timidly, to see him looking straight before him, his shoulders square,
his head thrown back defiantly. Now that she had won him, she faltered
over her victory. A sudden dismay depressed her further. His present
attitude was an impenetrable wall closing round the inner man. What did
she know of him? For a sickening moment her brain was confused by the
illusion that he was a total stranger whom some nightmare freak had made
master of her destiny. It vanished quickly, but an after-sensation of
fear remained. It was so different from the joyous glow that she had
anticipated. She felt herself upon the verge of tears. Resentment
against him, as if to justify her depression, began to spread like a
dull pain around her heart. It was cruel of him to walk as he was doing,
in other spheres, apart from her whom he had just made his wife. She
withdrew her hand from his arm. He started, caught her hand and replaced
it, pressed it closely to him and looked down upon the trouble of her
face.
“Poor child,” he said, “you are shaken. Thank goodness it is over.”
The tears began to gather in her eyes. “It was horrid,” she said.
“Well, it will never happen again, sweetheart. Let us forget the dismal
old man and think of what lies before us. You must be bright and happy
on your wedding day.”
“If you would let me,” said Minna.
“I, dearest?” he exclaimed, with some prickings of self-reproach.
“Yes. Why have you walked all this time without speaking a word to me?”
A tear fell. It roused the man’s tenderness, melted the cold weight of
misgiving that had held him silent. He felt that he had behaved brutally
to her. She was his wife; nothing could alter it. Cruelly vain now
were searchings of heart and conscience. He had caused her unhappiness
already. In the revulsion of feeling he broke into passionate speech,
bending as he walked, to whisper in her ear. He spoke foolish words of
comfort, chided her loverwise for vain fancies, explained his previous
mood of seriousness. It was a solemn step they had taken. He was trying
to realise that he held her happiness in his hands for the rest of her
life. Minna began to brighten.
“It is foolish to cry,” she said, “but I was hungering for a word.”