A Millionaire of Yesterday — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
A Millionaire of Yesterday
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to deepen his consciousness of the gulf which lay between him and them.
They were of a world to which, even if he were permitted to enter it,
he could not possibly belong. He returned such glances as fell upon him
with fierce insolence; he was indeed somewhat of a strange figure in
his ill-fitting and inappropriate clothes amongst a gathering of smart
people. A lady looking at him through raised lorgnettes turned and
whispered something with a smile to her companion--once before he had
heard an audible titter from a little group of loiterers. He returned
the glance with a lightning-like look of diabolical fierceness, and,
turning round, stood upon the curbstone and called a hansom.
A sense of depression swept over him as he was driven through the
crowded streets towards Waterloo. The half-scornful, half-earnest
prophecy, to which he had listened years ago in a squalid African
hut, flashed into his mind. For the first time he began to have dim
apprehensions as to his future. All his life he had been a toiler, and
joy had been with him in the fierce combat which he had waged day by
day. He had fought his battle and he had won--where were the fruits
of his victory? A puny, miserable little creature like Dickenson could
prate of happiness and turn a shining face to the future--Dickenson who
lived upon a pittance, who depended upon the whim of his employer, and
who confessed to ambitions which were surely pitiable. Trent lit a fresh
cigar and smiled; things would surely come right with him--they must.
What Dickenson could gain was surely his by right a thousand times over.
He took the train for Walton, travelling first class, and treated with
much deference by the officials on the line. As he alighted and passed
through the booking-hall into the station-yard a voice hailed him. He
looked up sharply. A carriage and pair of horses was waiting, and inside
a young woman with a very smart hat and a profusion of yellow hair.
“Come on, General,” she cried. “I've done a skip and driven down to meet
you. Such jokes when they miss me. The old lady will be as sick as they
make 'em. Can't we have a drive round for an hour, eh?”
Her voice was high-pitched and penetrating. Listening to it Trent
unconsciously compared it with the voices of the women of that other
world into which he had wandered earlier in the afternoon. He turned a
frowning face towards her.
“You might have spared yourself the trouble,” he said shortly. “I didn't
order a carriage to meet me and I don't want one. I am going to walk
home.”
She tossed her head.
“What a beastly temper you're in!” she remarked. “I'm not particular
about driving. Do you want to walk alone?”
“Exactly!” he answered. “I do!”
She leaned back in the carriage with heightened colour.
“Well, there's one thing about me,” she said acidly. “I never go where I
ain't wanted.”
Trent shrugged his shoulders and turned to the coachman.
“Drive home, Gregg,” he said. “I'm walking.”