All for Love; or, Her Heart's Sacrifice — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
All for Love; or, Her Heart's Sacrifice
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He felt himself rushing to instant death, and in his horror over
Berry’s fate, he did not greatly care, though the instinct of
self-preservation made him shout aloud while he clung desperately to
the swaying vehicle that, after a mile or so of this tremendous rush,
became shattered into pieces, mercifully enough for him, because he
suddenly fell through the wreck to the ground, miraculously unharmed.
The maddened horse still rushed forward with furious leaps, trying to
rid himself of the fettering shafts that clung and hindered his flight.
He lay prostrate in the dust several moments, bruised, battered, and
shaken, but, luckily, with no bones broken, so that presently he stood
upright again, the only living thing in sight upon the lonesome road.
The moon and stars shone down upon him coldly, and the night winds
seemed to reproach him in subtle whispers.
“Where is she, the girl who trusted you, whose tender faith you
shattered with your reckless words?” it seemed to say.
With a groan he looked backward, then retraced his steps with
difficulty, he was so shaken up from the shock and the fall.
But he knew that he must find her, dead or alive, must restore her to
her home, for which she had pleaded pitifully.
There was a great ache, deep down in his heart, a passionate repentance
for his folly, a dawning love greater than any he had ever known in his
wild career.
“If Heaven would listen to such a sinner, I’d pray to find her, living
and unhurt,” he thought wildly. “Surely if my unworthy life could be
spared, hers should be! Dear, little, innocent Berry!”
Toiling wearily and anxiously along the road, he regained the spot
where Berry had sprung to her fate. With a wild heart-throb he saw her
white figure lying prone on the ground.
“Not dead! oh, not dead!” he prayed wildly, as he bent over the
prostrate form.
Still and white, and seemingly lifeless, she lay, poor little girl; but
placing his hand above her heart, he felt a faint, irregular flutter
that assured him of life.
He looked wildly about for assistance, his pale face transfigured with
joy.
“Berry, dear little Berry, speak to me,” he cried fondly; but there was
no reply.
The dark lashes did not lift from the pallid cheeks, the sweet lips did
not open to answer his pleading cry, the little hand he clasped seemed
already cold with approaching death.
“Oh, if some one would happen along! If I only had a vehicle!” he
groaned, sweeping his glance up and down the lonely road for a sign
of life anywhere. But there was neither man nor house in sight, only
unbroken vistas of trees lining the dreary road, and in the distance
the prolonged baying of a hound that sent an evil shudder along his
veins.
They were at least five miles from town, and he remembered with
sickening self-reproach how he had promised Berry that it should be so
short a drive, not over two miles at the longest.