All for Love; or, Her Heart's Sacrifice — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
All for Love; or, Her Heart's Sacrifice
John Stuart Mill · en
“Mamma, of course I know the hard things that are said of Charley--that
he is fond of cards, women, and wine. Well, I happen to know that the
very day of our fête, even by my very side, my lover was attracted by a
new beauty, and could not hide his admiration.”
“A new beauty--who?” demanded Mrs. Montague uneasily.
“You will be startled, mamma, but you will see that I am not jealous
without a cause. Listen,” and Rosalind poured out the story of the
morning ride when Charley Bonair had bowed to and admired little Berry
Vining.
“He said, to my very face, that she was the prettiest girl he ever saw,
but I told him how poor and humble she was, and ridiculed his fancy. I
found out afterward that he rode back from my side to the florist’s,
and sent her a great bunch of red roses. Was not that enough to make
any engaged girl angry and jealous, mamma?”
“I must admit you are quite right, darling. Oh, what wretches men are!”
“Yes, indeed, and naturally after that I was jealous and suspicious.
When he did not come that night I was almost wild, wondering if I was
deserted already for the little village beauty. I did not sleep that
night for anger and grief, though I was too proud to tell you until
now, when I can no longer bear my trouble alone, because I am haunted
always by two torturing questions.”
“What are they, my love?”
“One is this, mamma: ‘What became of that girl when she disappeared so
suddenly from home that night? And--did Charley Bonair know anything of
her flight?’”
“You suspect him of treachery?”
“Have I not cause? How strangely she fled from home! How lame were her
old mother’s guesses at the truth! No girl could be forced to marry a
rich old man against her will. Then again, mamma, how strange that
Charley should be taking a ride miles out into the country that night,
when he was overdue at our fête, where he was to be the guest of honor.”
“You talk like a detective, Rosalind.”
“Oh, mamma, do not ridicule me,” the girl clasped her white hands,
imploringly. “Think how much I love him, how much I have at stake! I
have puzzled out all this in torturing nights when I could not sleep
for jealous pain.”
The proud woman of the world looked at her beautiful daughter, and a
deep sigh escaped her lips. Stifling it with a sarcastic smile, she
answered:
“It is the way of the world, my dear; men are wicked, and women are
weak. It may be as you suspect, that he had a fancy for the girl, but
you need not worry over that; you are the one he will marry, and he
will tire of her and put her aside before your wedding day.”
“But, mamma, I hate her! I would gladly see her dead, the little hussy!
How dare she accept his love, knowing, as all the town knows, that he
belongs to me! And who would have believed such a thing of little Berry
Vining, who seemed such a good, innocent little thing!”