Backwater : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 2 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Backwater : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 2
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Presently the bread and butter and milk came up for the girls, and then
there was prayers--the three servants lined up in front of the
bookshelves; cook wheezing heavily, tall and thin and bent, with a
sloping mob cap and a thin old brown face with a forehead that was like
a buttress of shiny bone and startling dark eyes that protruded so that
they could be seen even when she sat looking down into her lap; and
Flora the parlourmaid, short and plump and brown with an expression of
perfectly serene despair, this was part of Miriam’s daily bread; and
Annie the housemaid, raw pink and gold and grinning slyly at the
girls--Miss Perne, sitting at the head of the table with the shabby
family Bible and the book of family prayers, Miss Jenny and Miss Haddie
one on each side of the fireplace, Miss Jenny’s feet hardly reaching the
floor as she sat bunched on a high schoolroom chair, Miss Haddie in her
cold slate-grey dress sitting back with her thin hands clasped in her
lap, her grey face bent devotionally so that her chin rested on her thin
chest, her eyes darting from the servants to the girls who sat in their
places round the table during the time it took Miss Perne to read a
short psalm. Miriam tried to cast down her eyes and close her ears. All
that went on during that short interval left her equally excluded from
either party. She could not sit gazing at Flora, and Miss Perne’s polite
unvarying tone brought her no comfort. She sometimes thought longingly
of prayers in Germany, the big quiet saal with its high windows, its
great dark doors, its annexe of wooden summer-room, Fräulein’s clear,
brooding undertone, the pensive calm of the German girls; the strange
mass of fresh melodious sound as they all sang together. Here there
seemed to be everything to encourage and nothing whatever to check the
sudden murmur, the lightning swift gesture of Nancie or Trixie.
The moment Miss Perne had finished her psalm they all swung round on to
their knees. Miriam pressed her elbows against the cane seat of her
chair and wondered what she should say to Miss Jenny at supper about the
newspaper, while Miss Perne decorously prayed that they might all be fed
with the sincere milk of the Word and grow thereby.
After the Lord’s Prayer, a unison of breathy mutterings against closed
fingers, they all rose. Then the servants filed out of the room followed
by the Misses Perne. Miss Perne stopped in the doorway to shake hands
with the girls on their way to bed before joining her sisters in the
little sitting-room across the hall. One of the servants reappeared
almost at once with a tray, distributed its contents at the fire-place
end of the long table and rang the little bell in the hall on her way
back to the kitchen. The Misses Perne filed back across the hall.
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“Eh, Deborah, are ye sure?” said Miss Jenny, getting into her chair at
Miss Perne’s right hand.