Deadlock : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 6 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Deadlock : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 6
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“Yes,” she said, “he is a foreigner, and he is my friend. What do you
_mean_?” The man’s gazing face was broken up into embarrassed awkward
youth. Mr. Shatov was safely ahead. She waited, her eyes on the
black-rimmed expressionless blue of the eyes staring from above a rising
flush. In a moment she would say, it is abominable and simply
_disgraceful_, and sweep away and never come up this side of the road
again. A little man was speaking at her side, his cap in his hand. They
were all moving and staring. “Excuse me miss,” he began again in a
quiet, thick, hurrying voice, as she turned to him. “Miss, we know the
sight of you going up and down. Miss he ain’t good enough forya.”
“Oh” said Miriam, the sky falling about her. She lingered a moment
speechless, looking at no one, sweeping over them a general disclaiming
smile, hoping she told them how mistaken they all were and how nice she
thought them, she hurried away to meet Mr. Shatov waiting a few yards
off. The _darlings_. In all these years of invisible going up and
down...
“Well?” he laughed, “what is this?”
“British workmen. I’ve been lecturing them.”
“On what?”
“In general. Telling them what I think.”
“Excellent. You will yet be a socialist.” They walked on, to the sound
of his resumed singing. Presently the turning into Wimpole Street was in
sight. His singing must end. Dipping at a venture she stumbled upon
material for his arrest.
“It it nay-cessary; _deere_ bruthren;” she intoned dismally in a clear
interval “to obtain; the m_Ahstery_; o-ver-the _Vile_; bhuddy.”
“What? What?” he gurgled delightedly, slackening his pace. “Please say
this once more.”
Summoning the forgotten figure, straining out over the edge of the
pulpit she saw that there was more than the shape and sound of his
abruptly ending whine. She saw the incident from Mr. Shatov’s point of
view and stood still to laugh his laugh; but it was not her kind of
joke.
“It was in a University church, presided over by a man they all say has
a European reputation; it was in Lent; this other man was a visitor, for
Lent. That was the beginning of his sermon. He began at once, with a
yell, flinging half out of the pulpit, the ugliest person I have ever
seen.”
“Hoh,” shouted Mr. Shatov from the midst of immense gusts of laughter,
“that is a most supreme instance of unconscious ironic commentary. But
really, please you shall say this to me once more.”
If she said, you know he was quite sincere, the story would be spoiled.
This was the kind of story popular people told. To be amusing must mean
always to be not quite truthful. But the sound. She was longing to hear
it again. Turning to face the way they had come she gave herself up to
howling the exhortation down the empty park-flanked vista.
“It is a chef d’oeuvre,” he sighed.