Deadlock : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 6 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Deadlock : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 6
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The chairman had risen and suddenly quelled the vast voice in the midst
of its rising tide of tone, with the reminder that there would be
opportunity for discussion a little later. A question rang out, short
and sharp, exploding, as if released automatically by the renewal of
stillness, so abruptly that Miriam missed its significance. The woman
laughed instantly, a little clear tinkling gleeful sound, hesitatingly
supported here and there amongst the forward rows of chairs by stirrings
and small sounds of amusement. Miriam glowed with shame. It had been a
common voice; perhaps some lonely uninstructed man, struggling with
problems that were as terrible to him as to anyone; in the end
desperately getting round them, by logical somersaults, so funny, that
these habitually cultured minds could see only the absurdity. Her heart
beat with gratitude as the lecturer, with gentle respectful gravity,
paraphrased at some length an extract from the earlier part of his
address. She was once more recalled by the voice at her side. Turning
she found the unchanged face still set towards the platform. She
answered the question in a low toneless voice that yet sounded more
disturbing than the easy smooth conversational tone of her neighbour.
She talked on, questioning and commenting, in neat inclusive phrases,
and Miriam, turned towards her, reading the history of the duel of
audience and lecturer in the flickerings across her face, of amusement
or of scorn, responded freely, delighting in a converse that was more
wonderful, with its background of cosmic discussion, than even the
untrammelled exchange of confidences with a stranger on a bus. Presently
there was a complete stillness.
“If there are no more questions” said the chairman, rising.
“I should just _like_” broke in a ringing cheerful voice quite near at
hand, “to ask Dr. McHibbert _why_ if he considers that metaphysic is of
no use in a man’s life, he finds it worth _while_, to _pursue_ such a
fruitless study?”
“_Don’t answer_” said the woman in clear penetrating tones.
“Don’t answer; don’t answer,” repeated in the immediate neighbourhood
two or three masculine voices. The lecturer, sitting bent forward, his
friendly open brow yielded up to the invading audience, his big hands
clasped capaciously between his knees, sent a blue glance swiftly in her
direction, hesitated a moment, and then sat silent, smiling broadly down
at his clasped hands.
“Isn’t he a perfect _darling_,” murmured Miriam while the chairman
declared the lecture open for discussion and she gathered herself
together for close attention.