Deadlock : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 6 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Deadlock : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 6
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But somewhere outside her resentful indignation, she found herself
reaching forward unresentfully towards something very far-off, and as
the voice went on, she felt the touch of a new strange presence in her
Europe. She listened, watching intently, far-off, hearing now only a
voice, moving on, without connected meaning.... The strange thing that
had touched her was somewhere within the voice; the sound of Russia. So
much more strange, so much wider and deeper than the sound of German or
French or any of the many tongues she had heard in this house, the
inpouring impression was yet not alien. It was not _foreign_. There was
no barrier between the life in it and the sense of life that came from
within. It expressed that sense; in the rich, deep various sound and
colour of its inflections, in the strange abruptly controlled
shapeliness of the phrases of tone carrying the whole along, the voice
_was_ the very quality he had described, here, alive: about her in the
room. It was, she now suddenly heard, the disarming, unforeign thing in
the voice of kind commercial little Mr. Rodkin. Then there was an
answer. There was something in common between English and this strange
language that stood alone in Europe. She came back and awoke to the
moment, weary. Mr. Shatov had not noticed her absence. He was talking
about Russia. Unwillingly she gave her flagging attention to the Russia
already in her mind; a strip of silent sunlit snow, just below Finland,
St. Petersburg in the midst of it, rounded squat square white
architecture piled solidly beneath a brilliant sky, low sledges smoothly
gliding, drawn by three horses, bell-spanned, running wildly abreast,
along the silent streets or out into the deeper silence of dark,
snow-clad wolf-haunted forests that stretched indefinitely down the map;
and listened as he drew swift pictures, now north, now south. Vast
outlines emerged faintly, and here and there a patch remained, vivid.
She saw the white nights of the northern winter, felt the breaking
through of spring in a single day. Whilst she lingered at Easter
festivals in churches, all rich deep colour blazing softly through
clouds of incense, and imagined the mighty sound of Russian singing, she
was carried away to villages scattered amongst great tracts of forest,
unimaginable distances of forest, the vast forests of Germany small and
homely ..... each village a brilliant miniature of Russia, in every hut
a holy image; brilliant colouring of stained carved wood, each peasant a
striking picture, filling the eye in the clear light, many
“most-dignified”; their garments coloured with natural dyes, “the most
pure plant-stain colours,” deep and intense. She saw the colours, mat
and sheenless, yet full of light, taking the light in and in, richly,
and turned grievously to the poor cheap tones in all the western shops,
clever shining chemical dyes, endless teasing variety, without depth or
feeling, cheating the eye of life; and back again homesick to the rich