Deadlock : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 6 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Deadlock : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 6
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They did not want her to go away. The room was freely hers. She moved
away from them, wandering about in it. It was full, just beyond the veil
of its hushed desolation, of bright light; thronging with scenes ranged
in her memory. All the people in them were away somewhere living their
lives; they had come out of lives into the strange, lifeless, suspended
atmosphere of the house. She had felt that they were nothing but a part
of its suspension, that behind their extraordinary secretive talkative
openness there was nothing, no personal interest or wonder, no
personality, only frozen wary secretiveness. And they had _lives_ and
had gone back into them or forward to them. Perhaps Mrs. Bailey and Mr.
Gunner had always realised this ... always seen them as people with
other lives, not ghosts, frozen before they came, or unfortunates coming
inevitably to this house rather than to any other, to pass on, frozen
for life, by their very passage through its atmosphere.... There had
been the Canadians and the foreigners, unconscious of the atmosphere;
free and active in it. Perhaps because they really went to Covent Garden
and Petticoat Lane and Saint Paul’s.... There’s not many stays ’ere
long; them as stays, stays always. A man writing; pleased with making a
single phrase stand for a description of a third-rate boarding-house,
not seeing that it turned him into a third-rate boarding-house.... Stays
always; _always_. But that meant _boarders_; perhaps only those boarders
who did nothing at all but live in the house, waiting for their food;
“human odds and ends” ....... literary talk, the need for phrases.
These afterthoughts always came, answering the man’s phrase; but they
had not prevented his description from coming up always now together
with any thoughts about the house. There was a truth in it, but not
anything of the whole truth. It was like a photograph ..... it made you
_see_ the slatternly servant and the house and the dreadful looking
people going in and out. Clever phrases that make you see things by a
deliberate arrangement, leave an impression that is false to life. But
men do see life in this way, disposing of things and rushing on with
their talk; they think like that, all their thoughts false to life;
everything neatly described in single phrases that are not true.
Starting with a false statement they go on piling up their books. That
man never saw how extraordinary it was that there should be _anybody_,
waiting for _anything_. But why did their clever phrases keep on coming
up in one’s mind?