Deadlock : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 6 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Deadlock : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 6
John Stuart Mill · en
“Now I am pairfectly happy” he said as he passed through the swing doors
of the reading-room. His head was up radiantly singing, he was rushing
trustfully forward, looking at nothing, carrying her on, close at his
side, till they reached the barrier of the outmost catalogue desk. He
pulled up facing her, with wide wild eyes looking at nothing. “We shall
at once take Anaka_ray_ninna in _English_” he shouted in an enthusiastic
whisper.
“We must choose seats before we get books,” murmured Miriam. There was
plenty to do and explain; the revelation of her meagre attack on the
riches of the library need not yet come. Were they to read together? Had
he reached his goal “midst all those literatures” to spend his time in
showing her Tolstoy? He followed her absently about as she filled in the
time while they waited for their book, by showing all she knew of the
routine of the library. “There shall of course” he said in a gruff
explanatory tone, arresting her near the entrance to the central
enclosure, “be a quite exhaustive system of catalogue, but I find there
is too much _formalities_; with all these little baskets.” “Ssh,” begged
Miriam leading him away. She drifted to the bookshelves, showing him the
one shelf she knew on the south side; there was a reader on a ladder at
the very shelf. “Carlyle’s French Revolution is up there” she said
confidently. “Na, na,” he growled reproachfully, “this is a most purely
unreliable fictional history, a tour de force from special individual
prejudices. You should take rather Thiers.” She piloted him across to
her shelf on the north side to point out the Revue des deux Mondes and
the North American Review. He paused, searching along the shelves. “_Ah.
Here_ is books.” He drew out and flung open a heavy beautifully printed
volume with wide margins on the pages; she would show him the clever
little folding arrangements to hold heavy volumes; “You do not know
these?” he demanded of her silence; “ah that is a great pity; it is the
complete discours de l’Académie française; you shall immediately read
them; ah, they are the most _perfect_ modèles.” She glanced at the open
page beginning “Messieurs! Le sentiment de fierté avec laquelle je
vous”; it was a voice; exactly like the voice of Mr. Shatov. He stood
with the heavy open volume, insisting in his dreadfully audible whisper
on wonderful French names prefixed to the titles of addresses,
fascinating subjects, one of them Mr. _Gladstone_! He looked French as
he spoke; a brilliantly polished Frenchman. Why had he not gone to
France? He was German too, with a German education and yet with some
impatiently unexplained understanding and contempt--for Germany. Why was
he drawn towards England? That was the mysterious thing. What was the
secret of the reverence in this man towards England and the English? He
was not an anarchist. There he stood, Russian, come from all that
far-away beauty, with German and French culture in his mind, longingly