Deadlock : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 6 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Deadlock : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 6
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The series of lumps, passing one by one without accident through their
shocking task, softened in some remarkable way the history of
Tourgainyeff and Madame Viardot. The protest that struggled in her to
rise and express itself was held in check by his peculiar serenity. The
frequent filling of his cup and the selection of his long series of
lumps brought no break in his concentration.... Above the propped elbows
and the cup held always at the level of his lips, his talking face was
turned to hers. Expressions moved untroubled through his eyes.
When they left the tea-room he plunged rapidly along as if unaware of
his surroundings. The whole Museum was there, unexplored, and this was
his first visit. He assented indifferently to her suggestion that they
should just look at the Elgin Marbles, and stood unmoved before the
groups, presently saying with some impatience that here, too, the air
was oppressive and he would like to go into the freshness.
Out in the street he walked quickly along brumming to himself. She felt
they had been long acquainted; the afternoon had abolished
embarrassments, but he was a stranger. She had nothing to say to him;
perhaps there would be no more communications. She looked forward with
uneasiness to the evening’s lesson. They were both tired; it would be an
irretrievable failure to try to extend their afternoon’s achievement;
and she would have to pass the intervening time alone with her growing
incapability, while he recovered his tone at the dinner-table. The
thought of him there, socially alive while she froze in her room, was
intolerable. She too would go in to dinner ... their present association
was too painful to part upon. She bent their steps cheerfully in the
direction of home. Excuse me, he said suddenly, I will take here fruits,
and he disappeared into a greengrocer’s shop emerging presently munching
from an open bag of grapes.......
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Supposing books had no names ..... Villette had meant nothing for years;
a magic name until somebody said it was Brussels ....... she was
impressed by St. Paul’s dome in the morning because it was St. Paul’s.
That spoilt the part about the journey; waking you up with a start like
the end of a dream. St. Paul’s sticking out through the text; someone
suddenly introduced to you at a gathering, standing in front of you,
blocking out the general sense of things; until you began to dance, when
it came back until you stopped, when the person became a person again,
with a name, and special things had to be said. St. Paul’s could not be
got into the general sense of the journey; it was a quotation from
another world; a smaller world than Lucy Snowe and her journey.