Deadlock : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 6 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Deadlock : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 6
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Her starlit window suggested the many watchers. Perhaps he would be
watching? But if he had seen no papers on the way from Russia he might
not have heard of it. It would be something to mention to-morrow. But
then one would have to confess that one had not watched. She opened her
window and looked out. It was a warm night; but perhaps this was not the
right part of the sky. The sky looked intelligent. She sat in front of
the window. Very soon now it would not be too early to light the gas and
go to bed.
No one had ever seen a comet rushing through space. There was nothing to
look for. Only people who knew the whole map of the sky would recognise
the presence of the comet.... But there was a sort of calming joy in
watching even a small piece of a sky that others were watching too; it
was one’s own sky because one was a human being. Knowing of the sky and
even very ignorantly a little of the things that made its effects, gave
the most quiet sense of being human; and a sense of other human beings,
not as separate disturbing personalities, but as sky-watchers.....
“Looking at the stars one feels the infinite pettiness of mundane
affairs. I am perpetually astonished by the misapplication of the term
_infinite_. How, for instance, can one thing be said to be infinitely
smaller than another?” He had always objected only to the inaccuracy,
not to the dreary-weary sentiment. Sic transit. Almost everyone, even
people who liked looking at the night-sky seemed to feel that, in the
end. How do they get this kind of impression? If the stars are sublime,
why should the earth be therefore petty? It is part of a sublime system.
If the earth is to be called petty, then the stars must be called petty
too. They may not even be inhabited. Perhaps they mean the movement of
the vast system going on for ever, while men die. The indestructibility
of matter. But if matter is indestructible, it is not what the people
who use the phrase mean by _matter_. If matter is not conscious, man is
more than matter. If a small, no matter how small, conscious thing is
called petty in comparison with big no matter how big unconscious
things, everything is made a question of size, which is absurd. But all
these people think that consciousness dies......
The quiet forgotten sky was there again; intelligent, blotting out
unanswered questions, silently reaching down into the life that rose
faintly in her to meet it, the strange mysterious life, far away below
all interference, and always the same.