Deirdre of the Sorrows — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Deirdre of the Sorrows
John Stuart Mill · en
LAVARCHAM.
— _breaking out in anger._ — Naisi is it? I didn’t care if the crows
were stripping his thigh-bones at the dawn of day. It’s to stop your
own despair and wailing, and you waking up in a cold bed, without the
man you have your heart on, I am raging now. (_Starting up with
temper._) Yet there is more men than Naisi in it; and maybe I was a big
fool thinking his dangers, and this day, would fill you up with dread.
DEIRDRE.
— _sharply._ — Let you end; such talking is a fool’s only, when it’s
well you know if a thing harmed Naisi it isn’t I would live after him.
(_With distress._) It’s well you know it’s this day I’m dreading seven
years, and I fine nights watching the heifers walking to the haggard
with long shadows on the grass; (_with emotion_) or the time I’ve been
stretched in the sunshine, when I’ve heard Ainnle and Ardan stepping
lightly, and they saying: Was there ever the like of Deirdre for a
happy and sleepy queen?
LAVARCHAM.
— _not fully pacified._ — And yet you’ll go, and welcome is it, if
Naisi chooses?
DEIRDRE.
I’ve dread going or staying, Lavarcham. It’s lonesome this place,
having happiness like ours, till I’m asking each day will this day
match yesterday, and will tomorrow take a good place beside the same
day in the year that’s gone, and wondering all times is it a game worth
playing, living on until you’re dried and old, and our joy is gone for
ever.
LAVARCHAM.
If it’s that ails you, I tell you there’s little hurt getting old,
though young girls and poets do be storming at the shapes of age.
(_Passionately._) There’s little hurt getting old, saving when you’re
looking back, the way I’m looking this day, and seeing the young you
have a love for breaking up their hearts with folly. (_Going to
Deirdre._) Take my word and stop Naisi, and the day’ll come you’ll have
more joy having the senses of an old woman and you with your little
grandsons shrieking round you, than I’d have this night putting on the
red mouth and the white arms you have, to go walking lonesome byways
with a gamey king.
DEIRDRE.
It’s little joy of a young woman, or an old woman, I’ll have from this
day, surely. But what use is in our talking when there’s Naisi on the
foreshore, and Fergus with him?
LAVARCHAM.
— _despairingly._ — I’m late so with my warnings, for Fergus’d talk the
moon over to take a new path in the sky. (_With reproach._) You’ll not
stop him this day, and isn’t it a strange story you were a plague and
torment, since you were that height, to those did hang their lifetimes
on your voice. (_Overcome with trouble; gathering her cloak about
her._) Don’t think bad of my crying. I’m not the like of many and I’d
see a score of naked corpses and not heed them at all, but I’m
destroyed seeing yourself in your hour of joy when the end is coming
surely.
[_Owen comes in quickly, rather ragged, bows to Deirdre._
OWEN.
— _to Lavarcham._ — Fergus’s men are calling you. You were seen on the
path, and he and Naisi want you for their talk below.