Guy Kenmore's Wife, and The Rose and the Lily — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Guy Kenmore's Wife, and The Rose and the Lily
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"Hear me, and judge, Irene," said Elaine, creeping a little nearer, with
a wistful gaze at the obstinate girl. "You, too, Mr. Kenmore. You have
heard me taunted with my sin. Stay and hear my exculpation."
He bowed silently and placed a chair for her; then he drew Irene down to
a seat upon the sofa beside himself. She yielded with strange
passiveness, unconscious that while she sat there his arm lay lightly
but firmly around her waist, gently detaining her. She was conscious of
nothing but a sharp, tearing pain at her heart, and that she was waiting
with a sort of numb indifference to hear Elaine's palliation of her sin.
Elaine sat silently a minute, with her white hands locked convulsively
in her lap. When she spoke she seemed to be communing with herself.
"Dear God," she whispered, "I had hoped that the child need never know
her mother's secret! Ah, I might have known how hard and cruel Bertha
would be some day!"
She lifted her eyes and fixed them in a sort of unwilling fascination on
Irene's beautiful, mutinous face.
"I have lived years and years of sorrow and despair," she said, "but
when I look back it seems only yesterday that I was a pretty, willful,
loving child, such as Irene was until to-night. Ah, so like, so like,
that I have sometimes shuddered and wept, fearing her fate would be like
mine."
Irene made a passionate gesture of loathing and dissent.
"Ah, my child, you do not know," Elaine said, sadly. "The greatest
temptation of woman has never come to you. You have never loved."
The fresh, young lips curled in utter scorn of that master-passion whose
fire had never breathed over her young heart.
"You have never loved," Elaine repeated, with a gesture of despair.
"When that master passion first came to me I was a younger girl than
you, Irene, and just as willful and headstrong and passionate. Bertha
and I were away at boarding-school when I first met my fate."
She paused, trembling like a leaf in the wind, and resumed, mournfully:
"He was a cousin of one of the pupils, and came to a musical festival
given by us at the first of the mid-winter term. I sang one or two
solos, and it was then and there that this handsome scion of a proud and
wealthy house fell in love with me."
"I have never loved as you say," interrupted Irene in her clear,
bell-like voice, "but I should hesitate to call that feeling which only
aims at the ruin of its object by the pure name of love."
Elaine bowed her golden head wearily.
"Let us say that he pretended to love me, then," she amended, sadly.
"But, ah, Irene, if you had seen and heard him you would have believed
his vows, too--you would have trusted in him as I did. No girl ever had
a handsomer, more adoring lover."