Honeycomb : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 3 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Honeycomb : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 3
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The table was set with replicas of the little groups of Venetian wine
and finger glasses and fine silver and cutlery that had accompanied
Miriam’s first sense of dining and when she found herself seated at Mr.
Corrie’s left hand opposite Mrs. Craven, with Joey away on her left,
facing Mr. Craven and Mrs. Corrie now far away from her at the door end
of the table, it seemed as if these things had been got together only
for the use of the men. Why were women there? Why did men and women dine
together? She would have liked to sit there and watch and listen, but
not to dine--not to be seen dining by Mr. Corrie. It was extraordinary,
this muddle of men and women with nothing in common. The men must hate
it. She knew he did not have such thoughts. All the decanters stood in a
little group between him and the great bowl of flaring purple and
crimson anemones that stood in the centre of the table, and the way in
which he said when her soup came, “Have some Moselle,” and filled her
glass, compelled her to feel welcome to share the ritual of the feast.
She sat with bent head wrapped and protected, hearing nothing as the
voices sounded about the table but the clear sweet narrow rather
drawling tones of Mr. Corrie’s voice. She could hear it talking to men,
on racecourses, talking in clubs, laughing richly, rather drunkenly, at
improper stories in club smoking-rooms; dining, talking and lunching,
dining, talking, talking every day and sitting there now, wonderfully,
giving her security. She knew with perfect certainty that nothing
painful or disagreeable or embarrassing could come near her in his
presence. But he knew nothing about her; much less than Wiggerson knew.
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Joey felt the same, of course. But Joey was laughing and talking in her
deep voice and making eyes. No, it was not the same. Joey was not happy.
These people sitting at his table were supposed to be friends. But they
knew nothing about him. He made little quiet mocking jokes and laughed
and kept things going. The Staple-Cravens knew nothing at all about him.
Mrs. Staple-Craven did not care for anybody. She looked about and always
spoke as if she were answering an accusation that nobody had made--a
dressmaker persuading you to have something and talking on and on in fat
tones to prevent your asking the price.... Mr. Craven only cared for
himself. He was weak and pompous and fussy with a silly elaborate
chivalrous manner. There was a stillness round the table. Miriam felt
that it centred in her and was somehow her fault. Never mind. She had
successfully got through whitebait and a quail. She would write home
about the quails and whitebait and the guests and say nothing about her
own silence--“Mr. Staple-Craven is a poet ...”
“Give Mélie some more drink, Percy,” said Mrs. Corrie. “It’s all wrong
you two sittin’ together.”
“She likes to sit near me, don’t you, my duck?” said Mr. Craven, looking
about for the wine and bowing to and fro from his hips.