Honeycomb : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 3 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Honeycomb : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 3
John Stuart Mill · en
“C’est si bon,” sang Mrs. Kronen in a deep baritone, as Miriam drank her
coffee; “de con-fon-dre en un, deu-eux bai-sers.” She sang it out
through the quiet upstairs rooms, she met with it the bustle of
preparation downstairs. It was a world she lived in that made her able
to carry off these things without being disturbed by them, a rosy secret
world in which she lived secure. A richness at the heart of things. She
was there. She possessed it with her large strong brick-red and
rose-white frame and her strong yellow hair. Did she, really? At any
rate she wanted to suggest that she did--that that secret richness was
the heart of things. She flung out boldly that it was and that she was
there, but a sort of soft horrible slurring flatness in her voice
suggested evil, as if a sort of restless acceptance of something evil
was the price of her carelessness. Perhaps that was how things were.
Perhaps that was part of taking each fair mask for what it shows itself.
She made everyone else seem cloudy and shrivelled and dim. Miriam took
up the stupendous envelope and held its solid weight in her hand as Mrs.
Kronen sang on. “All right,” she said, and smiled at it, feeling daring
and strong. Its arrival would have been quite different if Mrs. Kronen
had not been there; this curious powerful independent morning in the
rose-blue room would not have happened in the same way without Mrs.
Kronen.... Live, don’t worry.... I’ve always been worrying and
bothering. I’m going to be like Mrs. Kronen; but quite different,
because she hasn’t the least idea how beautiful things really are. She
doesn’t know that everyone is living a beautiful strange life that has
never been lived before. If she did she would not be ashamed of herself.
Miriam gave a great sigh and smiled.
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