Honeycomb : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 3 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Honeycomb : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 3
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Should she tell her about the weddings? Perhaps not. It would be time
enough, she reflected rapidly, when she had to ask permission to go home
for them. Mrs. Corrie had not asked her a single question about things
at home, and if she were to say, “We used to live in a big house and my
father lost nearly all his money and we live now in a tiny villa and two
of my sisters are to be married,” it would break into this strange easy
new life. It would break the charm and not bring her any nearer to Mrs.
Corrie. And Mrs. Corrie would not really understand about the home
troubles. Mrs. Corrie had always been lonely and sad, inside. She had
been an orphan, but brought up by a wealthy uncle and always living in
wealth and now she seemed to think about nothing but the children and
the house and the garden--hating theatres and dances and never going to
them or paying visits or seeing the wonder of anything. She would only
say, “Don’t you marry yourself off, young lady, marriage is a fraud. You
wait for a wealthy one.” Whatever one said to her, whatever joy one
showed her would lead to that.
But the two weddings hovered about the commons. They were a great
possession. Nothing to worry about in them. Gerald and Bennett who had
managed everything since the smash would manage them. Sarah and Harriet
would be married from the little villa and would be Mrs. Brodie and Mrs.
Ducayne just like anybody else. So safe. And she herself, free, getting
interesting letters, going up to town with Mrs. Corrie, no worry, spring
hats and the commons and garden waiting for them. She was sure she did
not want to see the commons overburdened by the idea of her own wedding.
Two was enough for the present. Of course, some day--someone, somewhere,
wonderful and different from everyone else. Cash--no, not business and
cigars and offices ... the city, horrible bloated men with shapeless
figures, horrible chemists’ shops advertising pick-me-ups ... a
cottage--a cottage. Why did people laugh at love in a cottage? The
outsides of cottages were the best part, everyone said. They were dark
inside; but why not? A lamp; and outside the garden and the light.
“She’s had all _kinds_ of operations,” mused Mrs. Corrie.
“_Really?_”
“Deadly awful. In nursing homes. She’ll never have any kiddies.”
Were there cold shadows on everything, everywhere?
She turned a pleading face to Mrs. Corrie. They were driving into the
station yard.
“It’s true, true, true,” laughed Mrs. Corrie. “She doesn’t care, she
doesn’t want any. They’re all like that, that sort.”