Honeycomb : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 3 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Honeycomb : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 3
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Miriam recoiled from the thought of a dull bored man looking to her for
enlivenment of the moving coloured wonder of London and felt that Mr.
and Mrs. Corrie were anything but gaolers. She was not sorry that she
had missed the opportunity of seeing him. “Meanwhile write and tell me
your thoughts,” was the only sentence that had appealed to her in the
letter; but she was sure she could not whole-heartedly offer her
thoughts as entertainment to a man who spent his time feeling dull in a
club. He’s ... blasé, that’s it, she reflected. Perhaps it would be
better not to write again. He’s not my sort a bit, she pondered with a
sudden dim sense of his view of her as a dear girl. But she knew she
wanted to retain him to decorate her breakfast tray with letters.
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The following day Mrs. Corrie decided that she did not want to keep the
hats. She would spend the money intended for them on sketching lessons.
An artist should come once a week and teach them all to paint from
Nature. This decision excited Miriam deeply, putting everything else out
of her mind. It promised the satisfaction of a desire she had cherished
with bitter hopelessness ever since her schooldays when every Friday had
brought the necessity of choking down her longing to join the little
crowd of girls who took “extras” and filed carelessly in to spend a
magic afternoon amongst easels and casts in the large room. The old
longing came leaping back higher than it had ever done before, making a
curious eager smouldering in her chest--as Mrs. Corrie talked. An old
sketch-book was brought out and Mrs. Corrie spent the morning making
drawings of the heads of the children as they sat at lessons. The book
was almost full of drawings of the children’s heads. Besides the heads
there were rough sketches of people Miriam did not know. The first
half-dozen pages were covered with small outlines, hands, feet, eyes,
thumbs; a few lines suggesting a body. These pages seemed full of life.
But the sketches of the children and the unknown people, sitting posed,
in profile, looking up, looking down, full face, quarter face,
three-quarters, depressed her. Learning to draw did not seem worth while
if this was the result. The early pages haunted her memory as she sat
over the children’s lessons. Feet, strange things stepping out, going
through the world, running, dancing; the silent feet of people sitting
in chairs pondering affairs of state. Eyes, looking at everything;
looking at the astonishingness of everything.
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