Hope Mills; Or, Between Friend and Sweetheart — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Hope Mills; Or, Between Friend and Sweetheart
John Stuart Mill · en
Bernard Darcy studied his son gravely. Now, it must be considered that
he had never been troubled with this hungry, perplexing view of life
that urges one on to dip deep into the secrets of existence. To have a
pretty house and garden, to watch his flowers, vegetables, and chickens
grow, to dream over his books in his cosey sitting-room, not to be
pinched for money, not to be anxious about employment, but to go on
serenely day after day,--this was Mr. Darcy's idea of happiness; and,
having this, he was perfectly content.
His mother secretly chafed at his lack of ambition; his neighbors said,
"A good, honest fellow, but with no 'push' in him." Curiously enough,
the virtues that are preached from pulpits Sunday after Sunday, that we
are always recommending to our friends, are _not_ the ones that gain any
vast amount of credit in this life. "Be content! be content!" cries
every one, from revelation downward; yet content, pure and simple, is
rather despised and flouted by our fellow-men.
"I don't know, Jack," said the elder, gravely shaking his head with slow
dubiousness. "What would you do if you were once away?"
"I'd go on until I found some place into which I just fitted;" and the
boy glanced over westward with hungering eyes.
"But, Jack," said his father, after a pause, "I think people oftener fit
themselves into a place. There are so few places ready made to one's
hand. It's always something. Now, I'll venture to say that David
Lawrence, with all his money, doesn't see as much real happiness as I
do. His is a slave's life, after all. It's day and night, bills to pay
and stock to get, dissatisfied hands, poor hands spoiling work, losses
here and there, little leisure, small peace of mind; and all for what?
There was a time when I might have envied him: I don't now."
Jack had lost all but the first two sentences.
"That's the thing!" he cried, with boyish enthusiasm,--"fitting
yourself; coming to something that takes hold of you like an
inspiration; that you could work for, fight for, that rouses soul and
body."
Bernard Darcy studied the youthful face, eager, alert, hopeful, and with
something else in it that he could not understand.
"I never had any such dreams or desires," he said in an uncertain tone,
as if fearful he might lose his way among his son's vagaries. "I wanted
a pleasant home, and a loving wife and children. I wish there had been
more of them, Jack, for your sake," and his voice took on a tender
inflection. "Then, if one wanted to go away, there would have been
others left. You see, Jack, mother's heart is bound up in you, and she's
getting to be an old woman with but few ties. I might manage to comfort
your own mother; but you are so young, Jack. There will be many years
before you, doubtless; and if you could give a few to us," with a
wistful, loving look. "Now, if you wanted to study"--