"I've been thinking," Bobby remarked one evening to Prudence, when they
strolled up the road together in the dusk, "about our talk the other
afternoon; and I've come to the conclusion that it's not the fault of
the place, it's our own fault, that we find life dull. One place is
much like another. Either we want too much, or else we are dull in
ourselves and can't get the enjoyment out of life that is there for our
taking. That's what I make of it anyhow."
Prudence considered this.
"Possibly I want too much--I think I do," she said after a while. "And
so do you. We are the children of our age, Bobby; we've learnt to think
for ourselves; when one begins to think one ceases to accept things
unquestioningly. I'm alive to my finger tips. I want to enjoy. I am
not satisfied merely to exist; a worm does that. I want to experience
life to the full. Don't you?"
"I suppose I do," Bobby agreed--"when you put it that way."
Prudence was triumphant.
"There you are, you see. It's just the way a thing is put. For the
moment you almost convinced me that the discontent lay in myself, and
now I convince you that there is substantial ground for discontent. No
one should remain quiet under dissatisfying conditions; we should each
strive for individual liberty. Youth is the time in which to do things,
and youth passes quickly. When we are old we cease to strive because
the spirit of adventure leaves us; but the hunger for the things which
we have missed remains. And that makes us bitter."
"How do you know?" demanded Bobby, with a cynical smile for her youth.
"Know!" she repeated, and faced him, her eyes alight and scornful. "One
has only to look around and note the disappointed, dull, sour people one
meets; people who have had their chance and missed it, because they
reasoned as you do; people who have not possessed courage or initiative,
but in whose blood the desire for enjoyment has worked as surely as it
works in ours. Do you suppose Agatha has never wanted to marry and
manage a man and a home of her own? Do you suppose Matilda doesn't
hunger for children, and Mary for a lover? Didn't daddy desire love?
He married twice, and the second time at least was not merely a matter
of expediency. I'm colder perhaps, harder anyway. I don't want
anything but just to get away from Wortheton and live my own life
independently, and order my days as I please."
Bobby stared at her open-mouthed, bereft in his astonishment of the
power of speech. Prudence suddenly laughed.
"You old thing!" she cried. "I've properly scandalised you. Why do you
set my thoughts working along these lines? You are just a boy."
"Oh, shut it!" he ejaculated. "You aren't much older."