Prudence wondered whether this unnatural dislike for her own offspring
resulted from the shame with which its birth had covered her, or was the
inevitable consequence of the revulsion of feeling which had swept from
her heart every kindly emotion which must have drawn her once towards
the man she now professed aversion for. The man who had injured her had
a lot to answer for. If ever it lay in her power to hurt him in return
it was fairly certain that she would not hesitate to use her
opportunity. The silence which she maintained in regard to his name was
no guarantee of a wish to shield him; it suggested rather a caution
which awaited its hour to strike.
The meeting left Prudence with a feeling of depression. It did not
decrease her pity, but it lessened her liking for the girl to discover
her attitude of bitter resentment against the helpless mite she had
brought into the world. And it set her thinking about marriage in a new
light. Was it possible to cease to love a man one had loved once
passionately? And could a woman grow to hate the children of a loveless
marriage? If these matters were beyond the control of human will power,
it seemed that it might be so. Here was an example of it anyway, though
it might be a bad example. Until that talk with Bessie Clapp it had
never occurred to Prudence that a woman could dislike her own child. It
was one of the inexplicable problems of life.
Prudence reached home to discover that she was late. Miss Agatha met
her in the hall, already dressed for the evening meal, which was the
most important function of the day, and at which no one was expected to
put in a tardy appearance. Miss Agatha glanced from the warning face of
the great clock at the foot of the staircase to the sweet flushed face
of her young sister, and from thence to her dust-soiled shoes.
"Where have you been?" she demanded. "Don't you see the time?"
"I'll hurry," Prudence answered. "It won't take me three minutes to
change. I've been for a tramp."
"You have a deceitful habit," Miss Agatha admonished her, "of slipping
away from the house without informing anyone. If you were less selfish
it might occur to you that your sisters would like to accompany you
occasionally. I can't understand why you prefer to walk alone."
"I shall be late," Prudence said, with her foot on the stair, "if I stay
to go into that now."
And with a rebellious face she ran upstairs, leaving Miss Agatha, aghast
and indignant, looking up from the foot of the staircase after her
vanishing figure. Prudence was getting altogether out of hand.
"She tramps the country," William affirmed on learning the trouble,
"like a factory girl. I won't have my sister making herself so
noticeable--mooning about the lanes and hanging over stiles. It--it
isn't respectable."
"I wish," Miss Agatha said, meanly shifting responsibility, "that you
would put your foot down. If you were firm she might possibly respect
your wishes. I can do nothing with her."