Lancaster's Choice — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Lancaster's Choice
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His aimless walk led him to the Magic Mirror, where he had come upon
her so suddenly and with such irrepressible joy that night. If only she
had listened to him then, she would have known the whole story of that
passionate love wherewith he loved her--she did not even care to hear,
he said to himself with bitter pain and humiliation as he gazed into
the clear pool from which her face had shone on him that night, and
fooled him with the love he thought he saw on the lips and in the eyes.
He had always been gay and light-hearted until now, but an hour of
profound bitterness came to him to-night alone in the odorous moonlit
stillness. The words of Leonora's song seemed to echo in his brain:
"For my heart was hot and restless,
And my life was full of care,
And the burden laid upon me
Seemed greater than I could bear."
"I wish that I could go back to my regiment to-morrow," he thought.
"Why should I linger on here, and how will it all end, I wonder? Will
De Vere marry Leonora? shall I marry Lady Adela? What will fate do with
the tangled thread of our lives, I wonder?"
He went back to the house, and he found that Leonora was gone, and
that De Vere had gone over to the fauteuil, and was talking to the
earl's daughter. Several of the men had formed a coterie around Lady
Lancaster, and were good-naturedly upbraiding her because she had
declined to present them to the beautiful musician.
"I could not do it, really," said the dowager. "She is not in our set
at all. She is a mere nobody, the dependent niece of my housekeeper."
"Well, but Lancaster and De Vere were quite hand-in-glove with her,"
objected one.
"A mere accidental acquaintance. She came over from America with them,"
said the dowager, carelessly.
In fact, she was inwardly raging with vexation. Her clever plan for
annihilating Leonora had failed. The girl had appeared to much more
advantage than she had expected--had created a sensation, in fact. The
men were all in raptures, the women were all angry and jealous, and
Leonora's modest withdrawal from the scene as soon as she arose from
the piano was felt by all as a relief.
Lieutenant De Vere had gone with her as far as the door. He had held
her hand a minute in saying good-night.
"May I come into Mrs. West's room and see you to-morrow?" he asked,
with an entreating glance into the bright eyes, and he saw a gleam of
mischief shining in them.
"Will Lady Lancaster permit you to do so?" she inquired, demurely.
"Yes," he replied, "I have told her quite frankly the reason why I
came to Lancaster Park, and she had nothing to say against it. If you
will let me see you to-morrow, I will tell you what I told her," he
continued, with his heart beating fast as he gazed at her fresh young
beauty.
She was very thoughtful for an instant. She seemed to be making up her
mind.