Lancaster's Choice — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Lancaster's Choice
John Stuart Mill · en
Leonora listened with dewy eyes and flushing cheeks. She knew the value
of all that he was offering to her--knew that he was wealthy, that he
was heir to a title, that he had a warm, true, manly heart, and that in
his affection for her he was running counter to the wishes and desires
of all his friends. It was but natural that she should feel proud of
his homage. She wished that she might have loved him in return. A sense
of shame and embarrassment stole over her at the thought that while he
offered her so much she could give him nothing save the calm regard of
a friend.
She drew away the hand of which he had possessed himself, and the rich
roses mantled her cheeks as she said, gently and sadly:
"I thank you very much for the honor you have done me, and I wish that
I could love you, but--"
"But what? Oh, Leonora, you are not going to be cruel to me--you are
not going to refuse me?" he cried, anxiously, and he looked so handsome
and so ardent that her heart ached for him, and she wished again that
she might have loved him, and said yes instead of no to his manly
proposal.
"I am very sorry," she said, and the pretty face looked so shy and
troubled, that he longed to gather her in his arms and kiss the sweet
lips into smiles again. "I am very sorry, and I don't mean to be cruel,
Lieutenant De Vere--but I must refuse, because I do not love you."
"Let me teach you," he cried, ardently. "I know I have been too
premature. I have asked you to love me too soon; but I have been so
afraid of a rival, my darling."
Leonora smiled pensively and bitterly.
"A rival," she said, with a quickly suppressed sigh. "Ah, you need not
have feared that! No one would sacrifice anything for my sake but you."
He thought he understood the allusion, and his heart sunk. He gently
touched the small hand that lay on her black dress.
"Do not judge any one hardly, Miss West," he said. "There are many who
would love you and make sacrifices for you if they had the chance. And
you know I should not have to make any sacrifice at all. I am rich in
my own right. I could lift you at once from the level you now occupy
to one more worthy of you--one you would adorn, and where your beauty
and accomplishments would be rated at their full value. Oh, Leonora! do
not say no just yet. Let me woo you a little longer--a month, a year.
In time you might learn to love me. Let me still hope on. I love you so
dearly I can not give you up yet!"
She blushed deeply, and the long lashes drooped over her cheeks, but
she answered, firmly:
"It would be very cruel for me to let you keep on hoping like that,
Lieutenant De Vere. I could never be yours if you waited months and
years. I will tell you the truth. There is"--a gasp--"some one--some
one else that I love."
A moment's dead silence. The girl drops her shamed face in her hands.
Presently he says huskily, yet with manly courage:
"It is some fortunate suitor you have left in America. Let me
congratulate you, Miss West."