Love conquers pride; or, Where peace dwelt — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Love conquers pride; or, Where peace dwelt
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“That is not true, Pansy, for a month ago you owned that you loved me,
and you have not unlearned your love so soon. Falsehoods have been told
you, and you knew no better than to believe them without giving me a
chance to defend myself. I have written to you, but my letters came
back to me unopened. I have dogged your footsteps on the streets, but
you fled from me, and, as a last resort, I came upon this excursion,
determined to force a hearing from you. Will you listen to me? Will you
let me explain the meaning of that scene with Juliette Ives that day?”
She struggled under his detaining hand, anxious to escape, yet not
wishing to make a scene.
“You were engaged to her, yet you made love to me; that is enough for
me to know,” she answered, turning crimson in her humiliation; but her
indifference and eagerness to get away only made him more determined to
conquer her pride.
“Pansy, you are driving me mad,” he cried imploringly; then, with
sudden passion, he added: “Unless you will sit still and listen to what
I have to say to you, I swear I will drown myself before your eyes!”
CHAPTER VI. A HAPPY EXCURSION.
Pansy was so startled by the threat of her desperate lover that she
sank back into her seat without a word, her slight form trembling with
terror. She certainly did not want him to drown himself, although he
had treated her so cruelly.
So she consented to listen to him. There could be no great harm in
that, for it would not alter her opinion of him at all. He had been
false to Juliette Ives and false to her. She was quite sure that she
despised him, although her heart was beating furiously as she looked
up into the pale, impassioned face, with its eager, burning dark eyes,
that seemed fairly to devour her white, startled young face.
Now that he had his chance, he improved it in eloquent fashion. He
explained everything clearly, making her understand that he was not the
villain they made him out, and that if he were to blame in any way it
was for breaking loose from the bonds that held him to a girl whose
selfishness and cruelty had changed his love to hate.
“If I ever really loved her, which seems doubtful to me now,” he said.
“It was last winter that we became engaged, and, although I admired
her fair face and enjoyed her society, I swear to you, Pansy, that the
thought of marrying her never crossed my mind until one night in the
conservatory, when I was, somehow, drawn into asking her to marry me.
I hardly know how it was, unless it was the romance of the moment. You
remember the lines:
“Azure eyes, golden hair, scented robes--
“They had crazed my hot, foolish brain then.
“Ah, the silliest woman can make
A fool of the wisest of men!”
“But they say that you are fickle,” murmured Pansy, speaking for the
first time.