New York: Its Upper Ten and Lower Million — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
New York: Its Upper Ten and Lower Million
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"Frank I love you! Many beautiful women have I seen, but there is that
in your gaze, your voice, your very presence, which is Heaven itself
to me. I cannot live without you! and cannot, cannot think of losing
you without madness. Frank, be mine, be my wife! Be mine, and the home
which shines yonder in the sunlight shall be ours! Frank, for God's
sake say you love me!"
He sank at my feet and clasped my knees with his trembling hands. O the
joy, the rapture of that moment! As I saw his face upraised to mine,
I felt that I loved him with all my soul, that I could die for him.
Reaching forth my hands I drew him gently to his feet, and fell upon
his breast and called him, "Husband!" Would I had died there, on his
bosom, even as his lips met mine, and the words "my wife!" trembled on
my ear! Would I had at that moment fallen dead upon his breast!
Even as he gathered me to his bosom the air all at once grew dark;
looking overhead, we saw a vast cloud rolling up the heavens, dark
as midnight, yet fringed with sunlight. On and on it rolled, the air
grew darker, darker, an ominous thunder-peal broke over our heads,
and rolled away among the gorges of the hills. Then the clouds grew
dark as night. We could not see each other's faces. For a moment our
distant home shone in sunlight, and then the eastern sky was wrapt
in clouds, the river hidden by driving rain. Trembling with fright I
clung to Ernest's neck--he bore me to the beech in the shadow of the
rock--another thunder peal and a flash of lightning that blinded me. I
buried my face in his bosom, to hide my eyes from that awful glare. The
tempest which had arisen so suddenly--even as we exchanged our first
vows--was now upon us and in power. The trees rocked to the blast. The
distant river was now dark and now one mass of sheeted flame. Peal on
peal the thunder burst over our heads, and as one peal died away in
distant echoes, another more awful seemed hurled upon us, from the very
zenith. And amid the darkness and glare of that awful storm, I clung to
Ernest's neck, my bosom beating against his heart, and we repeated our
vows, and talked of our marriage, and laid plans for our future.
"Frank, my heart is filled with an awful foreboding," he said, and his
voice was so changed and husky, that I raised my head from his bosom,
and even in the darkness sought to gaze upon his face. A lightning
flash came and was gone, but by that momentary glare, I saw his
countenance agitated in every lineament.
"What mean you Ernest?"
"You will leave our home to-morrow and never return, never! The
sunshine which was upon us, as we exchanged our vows, was in a moment
succeeded by the blackness of the awful tempest. A bad omen, Frank, a
dark prophecy of our future. There is only one way to turn the omen of
evil, into a prophecy of good."
He drew me close in his arms, and bent his lips to my ear--"Be mine,
and now! be mine! Let the thunder-peal be our marriage music, this
forest glade our marriage couch!"