New York: Its Upper Ten and Lower Million — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
New York: Its Upper Ten and Lower Million
John Stuart Mill · en
THE SALE IS COMPLETE.
When I awoke again--but I cannot proceed. There are crimes done every
day, which the world knows by heart, and yet shudders to see recorded,
even in the most carefully vailed phrase. But the crime of which I
was the victim, was too horrible for belief. Wareham the criminal, my
own mother the accomplice, the victim a girl of fifteen, who had been
reared in purity and innocence afar from the world.
When I awoke again--for the potion failed to kill--I found myself in my
room, and Wareham by my side, surveying me as a ghoul might look upon
the dead body which he has stolen from the grave. The vial given to
me by the maid did not contain a fatal poison, but merely a powerful
anodyne, which sealed my senses for hours in sleep, and--combined with
the reaction of harrowing excitement--left me for days in a state of
half dreamy consciousness. I awoke * * * * My sight was dim, my senses
dulled, but I knew that I was lost! Lost! O, how poor and tame that
word, to express the living damnation of which I was the victim! The
events of the next twenty-four hours, I can but vaguely remember. I was
taken from the bed, arrayed in the bridal costume, and then led down
stairs into the parlor. There was a marriage celebrated there (as I was
afterward told)--yes! it was there that a minister of the Gospel, book
in hand, sanctified with the name of marriage, the accursed bargain
of which I was the victim--marriage, that sacrament which makes of
home, God's holiest altar, the truest type of Heaven--marriage was,
in my case, made the cloak of an unspeakable crime. I can remember
that I said some words, which my mother whispered in my ear, and that
I signed my name to a letter which she had written. It was the letter
which Ernest received, announcing my intention to visit Niagara. As for
the letter which I had written to him, on the previous day, it never
went farther than from the hands of Caroline to those of my mother. I
was hurried into a carriage, Wareham by my side, and then on board of
a steamboat, and have a vague consciousness of passing up the Hudson
river. I did not clearly recover my senses, until I found myself at
Niagara Falls, leaning on Wareham's arm, and pointed at by the crowd of
visitors at the Falls, as "the beautiful bride of the Millionaire."
From the Falls, we passed up the Lakes, and then retraced our steps;
visited the Falls again; journeyed to Montreal, and then home by Lake
Champlain and the Hudson river. My mother did not accompany us. We were
gone three months, and as the boat glided down the Hudson, the trees
were already touched by autumn. As the boat drew near Tapaan bay, I
concealed myself in my stateroom--I dared not look upon my cottage home.