Oberland : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 9 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Oberland : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 9
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For an instant she was back in it, passing swiftly from scene to scene
of the months in Waldstrasse and coming to rest in a summer’s evening:
warm light upon the garden, twilight in the saal. Leaving it she turned
to the other scenes, freshly revived, faithfully fulfilling their
remembered promise to endure in her forever, but each one as she paused
in it changed to the summer’s evening she had watched from the darkening
saal, the light upon the little high-walled garden, making space and
distance with the different ways it fell on trees and grass and
clustering shrubs, falling full on the hushed group of girls turned
towards it with Fräulein Pfaff in their midst disarmed to equality by
the surrounding beauty, making a little darkness in the summer-house
where Solomon shone in her white dress. And going back to it now it
seemed as though some part of her must have lived continuously there so
that she was everywhere at once, in saal and garden and summer-house and
out, beyond the enclosing walls, in the light along the spacious
forbidden streets.
She relived the first moment of knowing gladly and without feeling of
disloyalty how far a Sommerabend outdoes a summer’s evening, how the
evening beauty was intensified by the deeps of poetry in the Germans all
about her, and remembered her fear lest one of the English should sound
an English voice and break the spell. And how presently Clara Bergmann,
unasked, had retreated into the shadowy saal and played this ballade and
in just this way, the way of slipping it into the stillness.
“_Man soll sich des Lebens freuen, im Berg und Thal. In so was kann sich
ein’ Engländerin nie hineinleben._”
Perhaps not, but in that small group of English there had been two who
would in spite of homesickness have given anything just to go on, on any
terms, existing in Germany.
It is their joy; the joyful rich depth of life in them.
And this ballade was joy. Eternal Sommerabend; and now to-morrow’s Swiss
sunlight. Someone there was downstairs to whom it was a known and
cherished thing, who was perhaps wise about it, wise in music and able
to place it in relation to other compositions.
Its charm she now saw, coming to it afresh and with a deepened
recognition, lay partly in the way it opened: not beginning, but
continuing something gone before. It was a shape of tones caught from a
pattern woven continuously and drawn, with its rhythm ready set,
gleaming into sight. The way of the best nocturnes. But with nothing of
their pensiveness. It danced in the sky and tiptoed back to earth down
the group of little chords that filled the pause, again sprang forth and
up and came wreathing down to touch deep lower tones who flung it to and
fro. Up again until once more upon down-stepping chords it came into the
rhythm of its dance.